July 29, 2006

When a Watermelon is not a Watermelon

It's written "watermelon" on the description but it's not watermelon. It has got yellow skin which means it's not a watermelon.
"Mr. H, Have you ever come across a watermelon before in ur life?"
And yet "some" people at my workplace can still close one eye for tis stupid little mistake.

Apart from work, well, actually I'm on hiatus at work since Uni started. My life is like those clothes inside a washing machine. Wash. Rinse. Spin/Tumble dry. Full Stop. Every single day from Monday to Friday. Just that I chill out a bit on Saturdays. It's such a good feeling to be able to sleep without FEAR.

I've got a presentation this coming Friday on International Relations when I don't even have the book or references. It's a political subject. And again I m lucky number 1 to kick off the semester. Am I goin to survive this? It's okay to be lucky number 1, but the thing is it consists 30 percent of my final exam marks. I really hope I dont screw up the whole presentation. Stress.

Before that, I'll have to prepare a sketch in German language because I found that I can't talk in public if I were to memorise a few pages. I m more to the spontaneous side where ideas came in just like that and talk all I want. Gonna do it properly since me and my coursemate are bearing the name of the University. Fuh...stress again.

And did I mention I got small exam every single week for different subjects? You wouldn't wan to be in my shoes. It's terrifying.

I should say this week is a busy week with loadsa social and educational stuff going on and I'm involved with it. I would first love to apologise to a few friends of mine which I had "abandon" and "ffk-ed" (ffk literally means fong fei kei as in not being able to turn up to a date/appointment).

Anyway, let's play some guessing game. I'm actually organising my Singapore and Indonesia folder which I had promised to blog.

Guess what's this shop selling? This small little shop along one of the many many streets in Western Jakarta. My hands are indeed itchy enough to take tis. Make a guess. It's so obvious...can u see it?

July 26, 2006

Friendship with an Ex?

Is it possible? For some it's a big YES, but I don't know why, I felt weird when I got sms-s from my ex out of a sudden asking how am I doing so on and so far. Maybe because he told me before that it's impossible for him to be friends as in real friends with his ex-es. I don't take it seriously before because I didn't expect this would turn out like this.

I just go with the flow. Got sms, replied and that's it. What about others? Like go out for tea or dinner or something like that. Is that possible?

July 25, 2006

Sleepy...Tired...Sick

I wish to recover soon because
- some nice courteous people promised to watch movie with me
- some nice kind people wanted to treat me lunch and dinner
- some nice beautiful people wanted to bring me out for a drink
- some nice interesting people wanna chill out with me
- some nice nice people wanna help me destress with shopping...dat is

On the other hand, I'm eye-ing on a new backpack because I stuffed too many books inside it...and the bag can't handle it and ta daa...kaput. So kesian, just the 3rd week and I need a new bag.

July 22, 2006

DND

It's already Saturday and I can't remember where's my Wednesday and Thursday and Friday. I hadn't had proper sleep since Tuesday. So what happened was, I slept for more than 10 hours today with ringing phones and extreme changing temperature of the room in between. So, people can really tell I actually hadn't had enough p-r-o-p-e-r sleep. I m moody, I don't have appetite and I get angry easily now. Hopefully some passing butterflies and the grass outside can cheer me up.

Thinking of what I'm about to go through for next week really makes me puke:
- exam (what the heck, just the 3rd week of uni, I've already have to go through 2 papers)
- speech competition
- more books to buy (which we'll have to go through the whole state of Selangor and Kuala Lumpur just to look for it)
- never-ending projects and assignment
- vocabulary to memorise (owh, I don't like this at all)

And that's only for next week.

On the other hand, I've got loadsa girls from China adding me in MSN. That's very very freaky. I don't know anyone from China, I don't let out my email address to anyone, I m not a guy, I have never seen them in my life, I don't know then at all. And they started to tell me about my fren gave them my email address and stuff like that. And they don't speak English at all. So I've got to translate using Babelfish and it came out double the trouble since Chinese language cant be translated just like that. Who gave you my MSN address? I m going to "roast" that person nicely.

July 21, 2006

Dont mess with the WORD

"suddenly felt like loving you a bit more"

Guess who said that to me a few moments ago? That same jerk who abandon me in the carpark in Midvalley earlier this year...I really wanted to ask/tell him:

- are u out of ur mind?
- LOVE is a BIG word, dont mess with it
- you are the 2nd guy after my ex who gave me a hard time
- I had enough of ur nonsense and please leave me in peace. thank you.
- you're the one and only guy who hurt my inner feelings the most

That's the first guy.

Then now the second guy, this one is someone I knew years ago, he was going after my best buddy and suddenly I felt someting wrong with him in recent weeks. He became very clingy towards me, call me like everyday (but I didnt answer), I was cold towards him, he asked me out every Sunday but sorry, I don't want you to misunderstand me. It's better to draw a clear line. He told me I that he felt I gave him "silent treatment". You can say that if you want.

I prefer people tell me what they want instead of running rounds and rounds. My best buddy told me that he sms-ed her and he talked nonsense. That's bad. I felt he's very immature for his age.

Anyway, I don't mind/care what's up with these 2. Not worth my time.

Bloodbath

Wah...I think I need to either change course (because it falls on a Friday and after that I dont have anymore class, thus, midvalley is the place to be next) or do something to stop my shopping fever. I've been spending a lot on my "therapy" every week. As I mentioned before, I will only shop once every fortnight but the SALE is going on now. Hard to resist. Well...I don't shop usually, just once in a blue moon when the mood strikes (self-denial). When I open my cupboard every morning I really don't know what to wear, might aswell get long-term clothings that I will wear like almost everyday for class.

Damn ribut today in Midvalley, the ladies were like mad women digging through the piles of clothes, lining up as like they've just got a million ringgit from the sky. Guess handbags on sale now for 50% but the designs looked very AUNTY but still there're a lot of people "fighting" for one. Duh...damn pening. MNG and ZARA having sale aswell, cheap clothes but I nearly fainted when I see the people and the piles of clothes. Man, sometimes I rather pay more instead of having to go thru the "hurricane", La Senza's on sale aswell, with extra 10% today, so I happily stock up some despite having to go thru those "hurricane".

Then I went to Samuel & Kevin, Topshop, Miss Selfridge. It's so damn hard to find a perfect jeans. It's either I like the design then they're out of stock or it's very expensive. Topshop design's like retro but not the retro that I like. Man, I was so frusfrated when I can't even find someting that I like.

Oh yah, did I mention that it's my friend's idea to go and shop in Midvalley. I just follow the flow. She shops like mad aswell, and then I'm following her footsteps indirectly. But in the end, I spend more than her. But I did felt happier after the bloodbath. Although my purse felt painful.

July 20, 2006

Bad Impression

Aha...finally I realised someting new about myself. Everyone do noticed me yawning everytime when I'm sleepy. Is it very obvious? You know what? I was lack of sleep yesterday and the day before, so today I was totally out, I was mentally exhausted and so...I cant focus in class. My class is from 8pm-4pm with no break in between. And in the middle of the 12pm class, I m already exhausted. It's so obvious when I'm sleepy, coz I do yawn a lot, I'm the active and the most talkative one in class so when the class became very very quiet and peaceful, everyone know what's happening.

1st "natural phenomenan" in Dutch class:

Me: *Yawn* (Continue reading some dutch words)
L: Darling darling...look carefully what you're reading. (Yes, my lecturer loves to call us "darling")
Me: Oh..ok..(Continue reading while yawning)
L: Darling, you have to read carefully.

A few minutes later:

L: Darling, you have to becareful while you're pronouncing it
Me: *giggle*...I'm so sorry. (starting to yawn)

2nd "natural phenonenan" in German Class:

L2: Is today's class boring?
Me: Er...
L2: You dont have to "err..." you're sleeping all these while since this class started
Me: ??? (I was not sleeping, just yawning)
My classmates: *laughing*

Damn embarrasing rite? How I wish I have 48 hours a day. I need more time. If not by the end of the semester, I will be known to everyone in the faculty as the "Sleeping Pig". Pai seh!

July 16, 2006

People with not that GREAT attitude

Can't sleep. My blood is boilling at 5000 degrees Celsius. Come, let's do some gossiping. It's good to gossip once in a while. As I have not done that in ages.

I was chatting with a friend on MSN. A very long lost friend. Let's call her *ProudFriend. Okay, I knew her when I was 13, since then she's already someone with her proud-of-herself mentality, every single thing that came out of her mouth would be either a very luxurious item or a very you-will-envy-me product or holiday or wat so ever. And the good thing is she will only come to you when she had no friends around her. So me being on her list of friends, the one she will list down to the bottom part of the list because I m not a branded-whore then, I don't know who's Salvatore, I don't give a damn about Stella McCartney and don't know who the hell Kevin Richardson is.

Then years gone by, everyone with their dreams and pursuing their tertiary education in different places. So, you know, someone "branded" like her would of course choose to study in a prestigeous place rather than in Malaysia which is like "low-class" to her.

Then came one day (which was today, a few minutes back) when she's bored and got nothing better to do, so she came to me, a friend whom she will oni chat when she's really bored, like her last resort after nearly 2 years. Damn touching.

She made me feel really small. She started to talk about her experiance studying in that particular high class country, her high-class holidays, her high-class boyfriend, her high-class this and that. Whoah...did she ever consider other people's feelings? Like me, the poor me who only can afford someting out of my own hands and I don't have such luck to have such parents who will let me sprang their cash like mad? And that I m studying in a local university where the money came from taxpayers like your parents and mine and that I still have to fork out some?

Then later I ask her to visit Harrods to shop she said she got no money. Then after a few seconds she started to tell me about her luxurious experiance in this and that country. And she's asking me if I were to go anywhere after my degree or just stay in Malaysia...how sarcastic, maybe you can't felt the sarcasm but I do felt it and it's painful like hell. She started to tell me about how the education system in Malaysia like so-low...(of course I know, you pay peanuts u get monkeys)...bla bla bla and so on. Suddenly I felt so motivated to study hard and pass my ZD and then my degree and then my ZMP and then to Deustchland I come!!!

How inconsiderate of her of saying that she doesnt miss home when her mom works so hard to support her there. Man, what have become of me. Altho I don't miss home probably I m still in KL but then when I was sent to some places, I still miss home no matter what.

Anyhow, this made me feel stronger to go on with my pathetic life. Kudos to people like this who will burn my enthusiasm to go on and fight till the end! Fight! My dear ProudFriend, did you see the black sling bag in that Gucci shop when u were in London? That's gonna be mine. I m gonna get that when I have the time to drop by any Gucci shop. Owh and also the Giuseppe I've been longing for, and the best part is I dont rely on my parents for that.

July 12, 2006

Stress-O-Meter

My stress level now is exactly 145.83 degrees. How do i know? I've got a stress-o-metre inside me. I can measure stress because I'm good at it.

July 10, 2006

Nervous Breakdown

My hands are trembling, cold sweat protruding, body shaking slightly and I can't focus on a particular subject even when having my dinner. I can't focus on my dinner. Great! Anyone know any homosapien who can't focus on food?

So now, I'm going on a new strategy. No working when I have classes from 8am till 4pm. No stressing myself over small stupid nonsense. And shopping therapy every fortnight. Good, now that I will be spending more than I gain. I will be stressed again. But not for long. I've promised myself to only do this for this new semester.

I will suffer from nervous breakdown if I don't do something about it. 8am to 4pm with only a few minutes break in between is not enough. You know how big the uni area is and you'll have to rush from one place to another and fight for a good place. If not, you're DOOMED. No strategic place means 2 hours of day dreaming and sleeping instead of listening to the lecture. (As if I would listen and jot down everyting when I got a nice place)

Class today was er...hmm...better not say it. Embarassing. But I've brave through today!!! Rejoice people! Rejoice! And every starting of a new semester, the same thing the lecturers will ask:

1) What have you done during ur semester break?
2) That's interesting, could you do a presentation on it/write me ur experiance.
3) What's ur ambition? What do u expect in the future?
4) Will German language help u get anywhere?

and so on...

This applies to all my 3 lecturers. They're like photocopy machine. Amazing huh.

BIG question of the day:
"Why do I have to study and compete?"
Fate is the answer.

"Nothing in life is promised except death - Kanye West"

I'm very very tired. I guess I've grown "old" since the past 2-3 months. I no longer can climb the amazingly-a-lot-of-staircase-in-my faculty without stopping. I need sometime to catch my breath. My system will change to Auto-Sleepy when the clock hits 3. My stomach will Auto-Ring every 2 hours.

And the best compliment today:
"Wah, you've grown fatter."
:(

July 09, 2006

Surviving tomorrow

*Praying hard*

Tomorrow's gonna be the worst day of my life, because u know why? New uni semester. 3 killer papers, 1 out of the world subject and 1 getting 100% tougher paper for this new sem. I hope I don't get to have crazy lecturers tis time.

*Prays hard*
*God, pls help me!!!*
*Pray pray pray*

July 07, 2006

Wish I

How I wish:
- that Banshee would just let me go and stop yelling at me and also stop picking up every single teeny mistake I did or that I didn't do.
- someone to tell me to NOT GIVE UP or NEVER GIVE UP in life, I'm tired of telling that to myself every single day.
- stop complaining or bitching in here

- German's grammar not that hard to swallow
- my Superman will appear - help me in my world, I desperately need help
- they sell more Langenscheidt's Dictionary in Malaysia
- everyone telling me...or at least someone will come up to me and tell me..."I will never hurt ur feelings anymore" and keep that promise FOREVER
- shallow people stand aside
- I can cook better food for myself
- my workmates getting lesser...it's growing like mushrooms after the rain
- Italy will win the World Cup
- Chervolet Nabira
- my schoolbag not to tear tis coming semester - I've had like 2 torn bags each semester
- that I will have time 2 finish my homework and that I will be more hardworking
- Bonus from Boss
- my best buddy and all my frens were not sent so far away
- Skype will stay FREE forever and ever
- get a good hair cut and stop making me "cry" after each one
- free spa sessions
- a trip to Europe - HOLIDAY!!!
- people stop saying and cursing me that I will have a BAD FUTURE or NO FUTURE AT ALL
- some people with stinking mouth to stop telling me to WHITEN my skin and that I need WHITENING THREATMENT badly. I love my tan, in fact it's useful. I can be a Thai, a Vietnamese, a Phillipino, an Indo, someone from the "orang asli" whenever I want. I can be Malay, I can be a mix...when I m purely CHINESE. Not everyone can do that.
- some people not to pressure me to be PERFECT

Yah...Bad day today...been sick and everyting's not right. I need a hug...erm...no one...but many HUGS!!!

July 05, 2006

Malaysia is the best

Since I m "Buatan Malaysia". Of course I do miss home no matter wat. Malaysia is so clean...for now...people here drive so politely...for now...the weather is so good...for now...the food is great...for now...people here are so nice despite being the 3rd rudest city in the world. Wah...I think I m getting sick.

July 04, 2006

Sorry...so sorry

I know I have been abandoning this blog for quite some time, well, if you're stuck in a place where civilization were just meant for a small part of a big city, you'll get a 33.6kbps internet connection, that's if you're lucky enough. So I should say I'm really lucky enough to at least have a "good" internet connection. Big multinational companies here are still using 56K internet connection, so I cant complain much. It's rare...really rare to see people using broadband. I don't think broadband is cheap here. For this apartment I'm staying they're charging around RM500 per month. How "cut-throating"...I'm blessed only having to pay RM66 per month. Okay, TMNet, from now onwards I will pay my bills on time and won't complain anything even if your service is not good.

Actually I should be home by now, yes my flight is actually today at 1.30pm but I had to cancel it due to some personal reasons. The more I miss home, the later I will come back. This happens when I was in Thailand, got stuck there got extra 3 days. Now history repeats again itself.

To all my friends out there, worry not, coz I bought loadsa Indonesian crackers for u guys to try. Food is everywhere, just that everyone had to becareful not to eat certain food which may lead to becoming good pals with the toilet bowl, geddit? Okay, I shall stop now, I gotta wake up early tomorrow...goin to the market, yah, Pasar! Weird rite? Weird...I'm going to the market...