Apart of me

Apart of me would really:
- want to lead a very simple life with no big ambition and wish for nothing but happiness
- would wanna cook and bake all day long without having to bother about anything at all (Money & Life...very impossible)
- would just wanna travel the world for free (as in don't mind sleeping in the cheapest motel around...those with broken toilets...scary beds)
- life without computer or internet (bahahahaha...how?)
- rear some ducks and chickens around my house
- plant some living plants and watch them grow
- live in a small cozy cottage with a small fireplace in a small beautiful island surrounded with a 270 degrees view of sand and sea (Hmmm?)
- buy things that are not branded at all....not even the cheapest brand...(coz my friends said that I m materialistic in some way...my dear friends...it's QUALITY)
- being able to take an afternoon nap under 2 coconut trees
- be nicer to everyone (to those bitches especially...)
- throw my "to-do" list everyday without having to look at it after I wrote it

Strange eh? Well...I think globalisation in this country makes me go crazy. I rush to class, programs and stuff like a mad dog. A peaceful life would be boring I know...it's a part of me...so suddenly. To those who knew me since long long time ago would be laughing their ass off when they read this.

Of Thunder and Bad Luck

After I nearly burn down my house...lightning strikes...my laptop gone...my handphone got barred suddenly and I had a small injury on my toe.

Now that I m still having the exam blues, it took me 20 times the determination to do things. I got a team to lead, one more paper to go and loadsa things to be done.

Now I m just hoping that my laptop will be alright and I don't have to pay anything since I bought the laptop from Singapore and since I m in Malaysia, I have to bear some charges. Huhuhu. I sent my laptop to the service centre straight after my exams. Drove so damn far away. And I m sill feeling sad with the stupid incident.

The time when I was told that I have to wait for 3 working days for my laptop, my heart felt someting uneasy. It means I will be without internet for 3 days because of technical problem and not bcoz I m on holidays or anything. The 2nd day without internet already drives me crazy up the wall, nearly up the rooftop.

Now that I realised my laptop is more important than anything in my life. Owh I feel so damn down right now. 3 days...how to wait. A boyfriend can wait. But a laptop cannot. Cannot....
Luckily my fren is here and then I got the chance to leech internet for a while. Pheww....

SAD SAD SAD!!!

Yeah...see how well cooked it is?

I m damn blardy devastated right now. Very. Not becoz of what I baked but becoz of the fact that I can't do things right these day. I nearly burn the house down. My kitchen was covered in heavy smoke when I stepped in to save my cake. Oh dear.

My aunt invited me over for dinner at her place, so I decided to bake something nice for her. Since I m out of time, I bought a box of instant cake mix and then....ta daaa....it became like that.

I was having a bad day okay...I messed up my French paper, I was like an idiot sleeping in the exam hall...I really know nothing. Blank. Blank. Lack of sleep as I have German Literature at 8.30 am. Damn it. I m damn pissed. Pissed.

I thought a cake would be a really good idea. You know to destress. I really thought so. Arghhh...
I can't even bake an instant cake. What have gone into me these days? When I was young I bake beautiful cakes...all by myself, not even instant. It took hours. And see what have I done now? Stress over my exams eh? Well well well....I m damn sad right now. My neighbours would be very curious about that smoky smell from my house. At first it was all heavenly scent of my cake and now...Damn it.

I need a break. I really do.

No dessert tonight. Sad isn't it?

Serves me right!

Who the hell asked me to:

- sleep in class
- sit at the back of the class
- skip classes
- hate the lecturer
- do other stuff in class
- not bothered to jot down the notes on the LCD screen

stupid me, stupid me...for this particular subject...Gender

Too late to regret. Exam on Wednesday and it's finals for god's sake. I dun have any books to read, dun have any notes to refer to, I don't even know what I learn for one whole semester. I have no idea what's going on.

I will never take a subject I don't like anymore in my life!

Conclusion: Wednesday paper: DOOMED!!!

Silly thoughts: If I fail, I might have to become a slave. Damn it. Why am I so stupid? Why do I let myself get into these kinda trouble?

Finals... I should be happy. After finals I will have 2 months break and that's all I wanted. 8 subjects, 5 days. I will survive...I will survie...I must survive but now I feel like shit.

:'(

Procrastination

Drag drag drag. Procrastinate procrastinate. Dats me.

I wanted to revise all my 8 subjects the day after the concert thingy. But till now, I still havent do anything yet. Bravo!!! I m going to fail nicely in my finals.

Things like to come up in the middle of nowhere. Like the cupboard,"Hey, you, please clean me up. I m messy enough. Don't you feel sad?"

The rooms,"I think I m dirty enough, would you please clean me up?"

The kitchen,"You wouldn't wanna live with roaches and lizards dont you?"

My laptop,"You got bills to pay, you better work a while instead of nothing."

My womanly instinct, "It's been such a long time since you buy something for yourself, why not buy something?" ....and there I drove my friend to Midvalley and bought some stuff. And I spent (of course) a BOMB on clothes and food.

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My grand left me again. This time it's gonna be a few months. And she bought me some korean noodles for me to survive. I m already feeling like vomitting on the 2nd packet of noodles. I can't take it anymore.

Korean Noodles Phobia...euuuuuuw

I m baking walnut chocolate brownies this Sunday. Wahahaha. Me and baking. I used to bake cakes when I was young. And cookies and other desserts. But now, all grown up, only with my events and work and studies. Never really have time to bake. I miss my baking skills.

I wanna do so many things. I wanna bake cupcakes, biscuits and so many other things but I will turn into a whale. So...let's just forget the plan for a while and stick to my walnut chocolate brownies.

Youth Jazz Orchestra

I was there yesterday. No comment.

That's because I m not a fan of jazz music. It makes me feel so sleepy. I yawned like 100 times for the night. Thanks to my 3-inch wedges, I got leg pain aswell. But it's worth the watch for jazz fans. They're really good.

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I think I m madly in love with someone. Wahahaha. With someone I've fought over the phone, on the messenger, during dinner. I didn't know or realise that I actually have feelings for him. Weird isn't it.

Anyway, I don't see a posibility of being together in the near future since we argue so much nearly everday over small little things. So, I have to forget about him. Bahhhh....sad isn't it.

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Finally, I m off with assignments for the semester. Time to rejoice!!! Now waiting for my finals and as usual, revisions which I don't know where to start. Loadsa events coming soon aswell. Boy, I m so so busy.

Ugly Nails

I m stuck with the ugliest fingernails in the world right now.












To cut the story short....


My lil sis painted my nails with flowers, world map, treasure map but then decided to stay with little flowers. (Tis is supposed to be quality time with my sisters because I haven't seen them for quite sometime. Project of the day: Manicure)
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Nail polish remover left a few drops but decided to ignore because I m not going to take it off as promised.

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The next day (today): Dad's tyre got a puncture in the middle of the road this morning on the way back to his hometown.

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I have to help him change the punctured tyre. Since I m the eldest and there're no guys around and also because I m his daughter. :(

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My first ever manicured nails gone!!!

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When I got back...the few drops of nail polish remover are only enough for 3 and a 1/2 fingernails. So there...my ugly nails story



Some people often asked me this:

"Why don't you be a "girl" as in u know...be more girlish a bit, do something with your nails, wear short skirt all the time, I bet you will look more girlish"

There you have it...see. It's always a disaster. I don't do mani or pedi (except for some important occasions, and also an exception to french manicure). I felt my nails couldn't breathe properly. Poor nails. Now it looks like komodo dragon's claw. Eukks...