U can call me crazy

Not even 3 hours I was in this lil house in PJ, I m heading to Jakarta this Thursday. Havent got the time to update Singapore trip yet....Just for 5 days. How I wish I had longer holidays!!!

Throw away the old...get the new

It's official. I threw away my past, get on with the new. Seeking a happier life. No more old issue that will bug me ever again. I m so tired of having to care about those shit. Welcome the new me!!! Welcome the stronger and less emo ME!

I will grow old alone and unwanted

It's nearly 2am and I m still here in front of the PC thinking of my future. Can't sleep, just had 3 cups of tea. Dang! Shouldn't have tea...no caffein, no coffee, no alcohol...I'm sleepless. Looking back at my past, I felt weird...very weird indeed, in fact I m not sure what made me hold on to life.

- I've tried commiting suicide before when I was 17. Had a terrible fight with my parents, nearly lose the faith to live on. But someone saved me indirectly because I promised to accompany him to a live forum. And since I don't like to ffk people, I decided to go and it indirectly saved me from being buried 6 feet under.

- I had a bad childhood. My parents brought me up in a wrong way. By mentioning money and finances to me when I'm still in my diapers. I think I can even become an economist when I was 7. I know the meaning of begging and that's why I m working hard right now to be financially independent as soon as possible. I just wanna own my own roof and wheels. I hope my children don't have to go through what I had been through. It's been a rough ride for me. In fact the bad memories will stay for life.

- When I was in a relationship, I was not ready for it at first. It happen kinda quick. I was only 18 then. Never before I thought I would be in such a deep relationship. It taught me a lot though. I m much more stronger now despite of what happened. Why do I say I would grow old alone and unwanted? That's because no one so far who could resist my bad temper when I m really down, I could drive anyone up the wall. Luckily it only happen once a while. When my stress level is beyond the point, I can't control myself. I was in a long distance relationship, my then boyfriend didn't do me any good. I hardly talk to him, I've got no one to talk to, my best buddy was sent to a very far place to continue her studies. So my only way to alleviate my stress is to work and work and work. How pathetic. I go crazy sometimes. it's bad. I need a counsellor.

- During my schooltime, I always sleep or talk in class. I never did my homework. I copy my homework 15 mins before I hand it in. Even my Physics experiments, I just copy and paste. I dunno how I survive my SPM. I don't know how I managed to go for my Form 6. And again, in Form 6, I m the "Ponteng Queen". My attendence is the lowest in class. My class teacher knew that I'm hopeless. I sleep more in class ever than before because I had to work the night before. My Form 6 Maths book never existed. My Economics teacher is the only one who had some hope on me. Some. At least she had some. My STPM result is the poorest among my friends. Then I got a place in UM. University of Malaya. Everybody's dream to be in there. Being in here changed my life. I started to do my homework and study for my exams. At least better than the old me. But then my lecturer always said that this course had the most percentage of failures, not only in UM but the whole Malaysia. And then again...I m lost.

- I'm anti social sometimes. I like to be alone. I hate crowds. I hate to talk. That's when I m having another dillema. I can't seem to focus on my studies/work. I've got endless problems with people around me.

There's no good in me. I don't know why I m still here. I'm just wasting some of the earth's space and air. Am I having AMS (After Menstrual Syndrome)??? I wonder...

It comes in a row...bad things of course!

Air-cond not working...stuck in jam...hot day...some crazy Malaysian drivers...all the way to Shah Alam...and guess what...my laptop's battery not in place. I just need someone with great power to push the laptop's battery in and that's it. Been driving for 2 hours non-stop, got lost in the middle of the road...wondering where's Hicom Glenmarie Industrial Park.
I'm a bit exhausted now...no more bad news for me okay...I can't take it..okay I need some rest now...need ta sleep...zzzzZZZZZZZ

I love Deutschland!

Ladies and Gentlemen,

I'm officially addicted to this song :




Die Prinzen – „Deutschland“ (2001)


Natürlich hat ein Deutscher "Wetten, dass" erfunden.

Vielen Dank für die schönen Stunden.

Wir sind die freundlichsten Kunden auf dieser Welt.

Wir sind bescheiden - wir haben Geld.

Die Allerbesten in jedem Sport.

Die Steuern hier sind Weltrekord.

Bereisen sie Deutschland und bleiben sie hier.

Auf diese Art von Besuchern warten wir.

Es kann jeder hier wohnen, dem es gefällt.

Wir sind das freundlichste Volk auf dieser Welt.

Nur eine Kleinigkeit ist hier verkehrt.

Und zwar, dass Schumacher keinen Mercedes fährt.



Das alles ist Deutschland - das alles sind wir.

Das gibt es nirgendwo anders - nur hier nur hier.

Das alles ist Deutschland - das sind alle's wir. Wir leben und wir sterben hier.



Es bilden sich viele was auf Deutschland ein.

Und mancher findet es geil, ein Arschloch zu sein.

Es gibt manchen der sich gern über Kanaken beschwert.

Und zum ficken jedes Jahr nach Thailand fährt.

Wir lieben unsere Autos mehr als unsere Frau'n.

Denn deutschen Autos können wir vertrau'n.

Gott hat die Erde nur einmal geküsst.

Genau an dieser Stelle, wo jetzt Deutschland ist.

Wir sind überall die besten - natürlich auch im Bett.

Und zu Hunden und Katzen besonders nett.



Das alles ist Deutschland - das alles sind wir.

Das gibt es nirgendwo anders - nur hier nur hier.

Das alles ist Deutschland - das sind alle's wir. Wir leben und wir sterben hier.



Wir sind besonders gut im Auf-die-Fresse-hau'n,

auch im Feuerlegen kann man uns vertrau'n.

Wir steh'n auf Ordnung und Sauberkeit.

Wir sind jederzeit für 'nen Krieg bereit.

Schönen Gruß an die Welt, seht es endlich ein.

Wir können stolz auf Deutschland... SCHWEIN!



Das alles ist Deutschland - das alles sind wir.

Das gibt es nirgendwo anders - nur hier nur hier.

Das alles ist Deutschland - das sind alle's wir. Wir leben und wir sterben hier.

Black Clouds are here

Black clouds are everywhere above my head today. Damn. You see, when I travel too much, I kinda neglect my laptop. So raining or not at home, I don't know. But then today when I got back. My laptop doesnt work at all. Damn. I got so scared. My lil baby didn't responce at all and there's a lil orange light blinking non stop even there's no power supply. Must be the lightling. If I m not mistaken I didnt plug off the power supply. How careless of me.
Then when I got back to my parent's house, on the comp, someone from MSN message me. Yeah, someone from the place where I'm working, kinda harsh though the way he say it. Yeah, my mistake but you don't have to be that harsh. Not my first time though. Always got it from him. He's having period again. Duh...
Then my mother scolded me for someting else not relevent to me. Well, tis is just a small matter I know. When uni reopens, if this thing happen to me, I will really go out and get myself drunk for a few days. Yes, my uni life is damn terrible. Assignments as tall as KLCC, lecturers are moody like Hurricane Katrina, stress like shit, perfectionist are everywhere, traffic jam...everything. That's not even half of what I had to go thru everyday yet. Back home, work work and work...sometimes got scolded for nothing, sometimes got used for nothing, politics, stress again. Then come to my personal life. My relationship problem. Altho I m single now, but sometimes I do have problems especially with my friends. I hope they do understand what I had to go through, I wish I could go back to my parent's house every week and meet up with each and everyone of you but I can't. I've got tons of work to do, even I live under the same rooftop with my grandma but I hardly talk to her because my time is like not enough. I m really stress out. Thinking of it makes me scared. Man, I m so problematic these days. Remaja bermasalah, altho I m no longer a teenager. Aih...

Genting Trip

Yes, not even 24 hours back in KL, I'm already in Genting. More updates later...

Singapore Pt 2

Yes, I m goin to Singapore (again) tomorrow. I'm excited for tomorrow but someone just spoilt my mood. That fucker whom I treat as a friend. Finally, end of story. I m already very patient with him despite of what he had said and done to me. Fine.

"You're so great, get yourself new friends. Shallow people like you don't deserve to be my friend."

I m damn fucking angry with him I couldn't control my anger. Wanted to blast him so much but I m not gonna waste any gas on him.

"Go fuck urself! I dont care if you mistreat me!"

One thing I miss about my ex is at least he's not a shallow person. But this bugger here, is so damn shallow. I just hate it. Who's him to judge me?

Missy Elliot Jacket - I want I want

Went to 1 Utama today. Saw this jacket. RM423. Damn. But I love the bling! I thought I saw the one with a hood. I've search through all the images on yahoo on this. Aww...I like it so much.

Be rite back...

Can't update anything though because this computer of mine at my parent's house is a bit sick. Which also means the USB port is sick aswell which means I can't upload any photos from my digicam. Sad fact. So, till I got my laptop back, I'll upload like crazy. Till then...

Leaving the land of smiles

Yes, tonite would be my last night in Thailand. So far, after I've gain, shed and gain some fat...I'm finally heading home. Yaay. I've tanned my skin, had a 90 baht haircut that nearly made me cry (I'm vain, yes, very vain) and a big tummy. I looked like I'm 3-months pregnant. Gonna shed that off sooner or later and gonna go back to my detox-yucky-diet. Eukks...ptui...ptui...wish me all the best of luck people!

And uni gonna start soon next month! I hate going back to uni, thinking of goin thru those inhumane days of sleepless nights and nightmare...turns me off completely. But for now, I'm hoping to go for some shopping therapy, some spa treatment and fooooooooooooood!!! Did I tell you that I've found a cheap place in Hat Yai selling cheap pants? I got 3 of them. Short pants for running around the neighbourhood while snapping pics...a real good deal for a multi-tasker like me.

Went for some aerobics today. It's fun! In fact I'm addicted to it in some way. It's such a nice feeling exercising together with so many people. Hehe...Okay, gonna stop for now, need to shower and pack pack pack.

Next stop: Singapore

Desperate Disney-housewives

Wakaka...I can't stop laughing...

Found these somewhere...

1 If you are right handed, you will tend to chew your food on your right side. If you are left handed, you will tend to chew your food on your left side
2 If you stop getting thirsty, you need to drink more water. For when a human body is dehydrated, its thirst mechanism shuts off.
3 Chewing gum while peeling onions will keep you from crying.
4 Your tongue is germ free only if it is pink. If it is white there is a thin film of bacteria on it.
5 The Mercedes-Benz motto is 'Das Beste oder Nichts' meaning 'the best or nothing'.
6 The Titanic was the first ship to use the SOS signal.
7 The pupil of the eye expands as much as 45 percent when a person looks at something pleasing.
8 The average person who stops smoking requires one hour less sleep a night.
9 Laughing lowers levels of stress hormones and strengthens the immune system. Six-year-olds laugh an average of 300 times a day. Adults only laugh 15 to 100 times a day.
10 The roar that we hear when we place a seashell next to our ear is not the ocean, but rather the sound of blood surging through the veins in the ear.
11 Dalmatians are born without spots.
12 Bats always turn left when exiting a cave.
13 The 'v' in the name of a court case does not stand for 'versus', but for 'and' (in civil proceedings) or 'against' (in criminal proceedings)
14 Men's shirts have the buttons on the right, but women's shirts have the buttons on the left
15 The owl is the only bird to drop its upper eyelid to wink. All other birds raise their lower eyelids
16 The reason honey is so easy to digest is that it's already been digested by a bee
17 Roosters cannot crow if they cannot extend their necks
18 The color blue has a calming effect. It causes the brain to release calming hormones
19 Every time you sneeze some of your brain cells die
20 Your left lung is smaller than your right lung to make room for your heart
21 The verb "cleave" is the only English word with two synonyms which are antonyms of each other: adhere and separate
22 When you blush, the lining of your stomach also turns red
23 When hippos are upset, their sweat turns red
24 The first Harley Davidson motorcycle was built in 1903, and used a tomato can for a carburetor
25 The lion that roars in the MGM logo is named Volney
26 Google is actually the common name for a number with a million zeros
27 Switching letters is called spoonerism. For example, saying jag of Flapan, instead of flag of Japan
28 It cost 7 million dollars to build the Titanic and 200 million to make a film about it
29 The attachment of the human skin to muscles is what causes dimples
30 There are 1,792 steps to the top of the Eiffel Tower
31 The sound you hear when you crack your knuckles is actually the sound of nitrogen gas bubbles bursting
32 Human hair and fingernails continue to grow after death
33 It takes about 20 seconds for a red blood cell to circle the whole body
34 The plastic things on the end of shoelaces are called aglets
35 Most soccer players run 7 miles in a game
36 The only part of the body that has no blood supply is the cornea in the eye. It takes in oxygen directly from the air
37 Every day 200 million couples make love, 400,000 babies are born, and 140,000 people die
38 In most watch advertisements the time displayed on the watch is 10:10 because then the arms frame the brand of the watch (and make it look like it is smiling).
39 Colgate faced big obstacle marketing toothpaste in Spanish speaking countries. Colgate translates into the command "go hang yourself."
40 The only 2 animals that can see behind itself without turning its head are the rabbit and the parrot
41 Intelligent people have more zinc and copper in their hair
42 The average person laughs 13 times a day
43 Do you know the names of the three wise monkeys? They are:Mizaru(See no evil), Mikazaru(Hear no evil), and Mazaru(Speak no evil)
44 Women blink nearly twice as much as men
45 German Shepherds bite humans more than any other breed of dog
46 Large kangaroos cover more than 30 feet with each jump
47 Whip makes a cracking sound because its tip moves faster than the speed of sound
48 Two animal rights protesters were protesting at the cruelty of sending pigs to a slaughterhouse in Bonn. Suddenly the pigs, all two thousand of them, escaped through a broken fence and stampeded, trampling the two hapless protesters to death
49 If a statue in the park of a person on a horse has both front legs in the air, the person died in battle; if the horse has one front leg in the air, the person died as a result of wounds received in battle; if the horse has all four legs on the ground, the person died of natural cause.
50 The human heart creates enough pressure while pumping to squirt blood 30 feet!

Street Food of Hat Yai

Here are some of the food you can find on the streets of Hat Yai. I only managed to took 4 out of hundreds because my camera's battery life choose to be dead on me when I'm all ready to snap food pics. Sad...sad...

These are my favs!!! It's like a normal pau but it tastes 10000 times better than a ordinary pau. I have to queue up just to get some of these. Came in four tantalising flavour : kaya, meat floss, char siew and hot dog. Wow!!! It sells like hot cakes...er...hot paus

Hmm...I don't dare to try these. They do look delicious but my uncle told me that these will get you to be friends with the toilet bowl. And amazingly, your trip to the bathroom will multiply in an amazing number.

Roasted chestnuts...nothing special. Just like those you will find in Petaling Street.

The difference between Malaysian banana fritters and Thai banana fritters are:
a) Thai fritters are sweeter and the taste is more unique, with a splash of coconut milk feeling.
b) Malaysian banana fritters are chunky and big. Taste normal.

Productive

Today I m the housemaid. I swept the floor with my uncle. He mopped the floor. And then did some gardeing and work again. How productive can I get?

I lead a very productive day yesterday. Morning I went for a swim and after that I work for a while and then I had a half and hour nap. Afterthat, I went and jog (well, half jog and half walk...walk la) for 3.2 km around a very beautiful man-made lake inside Prince of Songkla University in Hat Yai. But then I got exhausted and found a nice place to sit and then my hands got itchy telling me that I should actually snap someting for my blog readers to see...witout hesitation, the moment my butt landed on that white stool...I began to snap...snap and snap...



FYI, I m not stalking anyone...it's such a joy looking at people who's so determined to lead a healthy lifestyle wherelse a couch potato like me...determined to be pathetic. Their stamina is like 10000 times better than mine. Should exercise more often. I still wanna look like I m 21 when I turn 70. Haha.

A so when I got back, I did some gardening. Unbelievable someone like me will actually step into the garden and feel the grass. Amazing. I m amazed with myself. (err...actually I m having leg cramp so I refuse to sit down or take off my shoes, and then my grandaunt saw me...and she asked me to join her in).

Oh yah, the day before is more like the one I had yesterday. Went up to the highest peak of Hat Yai and snapped these:






And so...after climbing so many stairs...I followed my grandma to this wet market around town. WET MARKET!!! Oh I feel so sick. Because I never really enjoyed being in a wet market.


And then...when I got back...I continue with my work...and work and work and chat till midnight and went to bed. So now you see how bored my life is now?

Random pics of what's inside my stomach so far

Arghh...too messy. I m such a disorganised person at this moment. I'm gonna upload all my food pics. Yeah, I know I've been eating a lot. I think I've missed some of the food (because I'm too hungry and I m not bothered to snap it). So now, my grandaunt and uncle and also my grandma have been pushing me to do sports such as swimming and jogging. I have never felt so healthy in ages. Hehe.

Oh yah, those wan tan noodles are not mine. I m not a big fan of wan tan mee though. I m again just leeching some of my grandaunts.

Food recap...Just for Lunch on Day 2 - Betong

I'll try to look for what I had on Day 1. My SD card is a mess rite now with all my photos tunggang terbalik.

:: Random Shots 2 ::

Aha...see what I told u in the previous entry that most people who come to Betong only got one thing in their head. SEX. Even some massage parlour have to warned those horny uncles about it. No doubt there're a lot of massage parlours in Betong who offered such service. I should stop talking about this. If I go on I will offend some good-ol Betongians.

:: Random Shots ::

This pic was taken when some Malaysian car honk at us in the middle of the road. He saw me holding a camera and then he signaled me to take his pic. So while I was running, I thought I took his pic but instead of his pic I took my own boobs instead. What a shame. But I felt the story behind this pic is quite funny so I wanna share it with all of you. Hehe.

it's freaking 42 degrees outside!!!

It's a hot hot day today....42 degrees. I m again sweating like a pig. I've so many things to tell but I don't know where to start. Okay first the bad news, I will only be back home on the 8th instead of the 6th just because I ter"click" on the wrong column. Dang! U know how much I miss Malaysia? A lot!!! The good news is err...means more food and I'm gonna be a pig by the time I reach home. I'm already controlling what I ate, it's so suffering u know when food is everywhere but not in ur mouth. On the other hand, congrats to my god-sister, she'll be flying to Scotland on tuesday to futher her studies. Congrats!!! How I wish I got brains like hers and har hardworking-ness. She deserved it. Well done.

I just arrived in HatYai yesterday after a rocky van ride. Damn...no wonder they charged so cheap. 200 Baht for a 4 hour ride from Betong to HatYai. Damn. Never go on rides liek this, it's a warning. I nearly vomit my intestines out. It's damn bloody terrible. They will go on those route like ur pasta, never ending spiral road and did I mention the road is like back in 1960s? I wanted to vomit so much but because of my EGO, I stayed cool and relax. Malula...how to vomit? No plastic bags provided. And did I mention that's just the early 15 minutes of that horrible 4hour ride. I don't know how I survived. I keep on praying to whatever god existed to give me strength. Not only one god but all in the world. I rather sit at the back of this, it's way more comforatble than being inside a van stuffed with 9 strangers.
At least I got air...oxygen!!!



Looks so comfortable...fuh...oh yah...u see I havent got time to blog about Betong but I m already jumping to HatYai. Let's see, since I arrived, I've been eating, sleeping, eating, onlining, eating, chatting, eating, walking, eating. I got phobia for weight-scale now. Scared!!!