Deep Shit

I think I am in deep shit now.

It's been 9 weeks now and I don't understand a single thing with my studies. I am out of words when someone asked me about what I am studying right now.

Totally in deep shit.

Strength

A lot has happened for the past few weeks.

A lot to make me realized what life is from what I already know.

A lot of those to mix up my emotions, thus making it stronger or weaker than before.

All I can say, my life went back to 0 when my housemate came back from his psycho therapy. A few days back, Monday to be exact, he gave me a 2 page long letter containing his bottled-up unsatisfaction with me. Fine. That's fine. So I sent him back a 2 page reply of my unsatisfaction, mostly blasting him back of the real fact that I have to clean up his mess, etc. He didn't reply. Fine.

Okay good. Now I am living with an enemy. Sounds great huh? Simply great.

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Then comes the story with P. P missed our date for 3 times in a row. I was pissed of course. It was sad. I mean my life now is already hitting the roof, he appeared in my life and then went back to 0. Double the sadness. Lucky that I didn't start off anything with him. Lucky.

I don't know what is wrong with the world these days. Or I am indeed having some kind of bad luck. It's sad huh?

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Other than that, I am losing my aim, my direction of what I want to do. Am I tired from running around? I think I have not run enough. That is how I feel about my life now. Sad sad.

I need extra boost. I really do.