Messy hormones

Yikes...remember there's one time I wrote about my coursemate's fucked up period. Haha. I got it this time. I got 2 periods in a month. And I m still voiceless since I got back.

People around me have been asking me to relax and put everything aside. The thing is, I don't know what to put aside and I don't think I m busy ("busy" like when I m having classes or assignments, etc). I think I m going crazy without realizing that I m already crazy.

Anyway, I m really happy to have friends around me to take of me when I m sick. Friends to cheer me up when they see I m stress (but I m not stress...ok?).

This holiday...I met loadsa new people, learn loadsa new things, got more compliment from work ever than before (but ain't getting any increasement...bad). And more road trips to come. Muahaha. Maybe this is my kind of busy.

M.I.A.

Yes yes...everyone's been wondering where I've been. I've been running to a lot of places lately with no time to even breathe properly. And did I mention my eye brows are like a bunch of black hays tied together?

I've been doing some soul-searching during these few weeks. Trying to figure out exactly what I want in life. I've been too picky in a lot of things... I know. I agree that I always miss or overlook the good things in life and always aiming for more. Nope, dats not greed but dreams to be pursued.

I've been given so many choices in life and yet I refuse to follow the easier way. What an idiot.

Cambodia Day 4

Looks like cambodians like me....hehehehe. Especially the guys. Maybe because of my complexion...kinda dark like them I supposed and maybe because all cambodian women are all very thin and they rarely see plump ppl like me. Haha. Jeez...scary. Scary scary.

I've been visiting temples since yesteray. A lot of temples and more temples. And finally I gave up and sleep on the tuk-tuk instead. Kinda bored with temples already. Angkor Wat is indeed magnificent and some others aswell. There're around 300 temples/ruins here and I m not a temple person.

Here I m sleepy and hungry because we're lack of sleep to catch the sunrise but failed again today.

I really need to sleep...for a while before another ride.

Siem Riep 2007

Here I m bloggin in a Cambodian guesthouse with free internet. The people here all all very polite and soft spoken. I like their eyes. Very sincere looking. But never ever trust them. Everytime we go to the market, we'll haggle like crazy becoz they love to give us very good price.
Food is cheap and nice but dangerous. Not that hygenic though. Me miss Malaysia. Huhuhu.

We'll stay here for 4 days before heading to Phnom Penh. I duno wat to do here. It's kinda dusty here and suprisingly, you can find a lot of chinese here. Chinese are everywhere in the world. I miss you people already. Very muchi.

Me bad...

*yawn*

Sleepy sleepy...I slept at 11pm but I woke up at 4am, If I sleep at 12, I will definately wake up at 5. What a nice sleeping pattern.

I went to the gym alone today. Alone...alone. Walking alone, driving alone...suddenly I felt weird...I m not as independant as I think I m. No one to share the jokes with me, no one to share the food, and no one to share the cream. I did cardio for an hour but it feel like ages when I did that alone. Meaningless.

So because of the meaningless thoughts of mine starting to get crazy, I stalked a very weird looking woman. She wear a pair of chunky high heels, flarry skirt and a top...all very wrong. I mean from the way she dressed, confirm she's not a Malaysian. Probably from China I think.

She kicked of her heels and started using the sliding machine. My gawd!!! And the best part was, she's doing that beside me. She keeps on sliding and sliding and even ignoring the message on the machine. There's a big "PLEASE PRESS QUICKSTART TO START YOUR WORKOUT" on her machine but she keeps on sliding and sliding. The message keeps on blinking and blinking and blinking until I cannot take it anymore. I wanted to go up to her and tell her to press the QUICKSTART button but I couldn't be bothered. There goes....I don't know how long she slides on that machine with her bare legs and then it's quite funny to see such things happening in there. I wanted to laugh so much. Me bad me bad. Why am I so naughty during the holidays? Bad bad.

After gym, I went on window shopping again. Bought a pair of pants. And guess what. The salesgirl recognised me. I think I've spent too much on that shop in some way. She started telling me the top and pants that I bought the other day and etc etc. And why am I so spendrift during the holidays? Me bad me bad.

Tomorrow I m going back to my parent's house. And of course shopping time with my best buddy whom dissapeared for weeks. Shop again...noooooooooooo. Me bad me bad....

Routine of nowhere

What I do everyday when I m not studying:

- eat
- sleep
- go to the bank (when it's not a public holiday)
- listen to people talking on Skypecast (yeah...pathetic I know)
- work
- eat again
- sleep again
- work again
- chat with my old friends
- blog
- clean the room, any room...I m bored okay...
- read fairytales from the Brothers Grimm (cruel stories not meant for children)
- download mp3, movies (apart of leeching my friend's mp3s)
- scold people and get scolded
- lay out my plans...(i've got loadsa plans but the latest plan for my trip...I have no idea)
- eat again
- wander around
- shop (as if I need everything when I don't need them)
- snap some stock photos (a way of productive time-wasting)
- check on other people's work
- read other people's blog

Hmmm...I m trying to fit into a new lifestyle...trying...

Of suckers and lamers

Oh hail the world...why on earth did I manage to meet so many of these people...why oh why...

Each and everyone of them have a similar pattern to ruin my day.
First they blame you for everything...lost of connection, lost of modem, lost of international plug, lost of sex drive, lost of appetitte....and then after a few minutes they apologise.

I m lost. I lost the plot. Suddenly I got it again. And then she apologised. A few days back, he apologised.

I don't know why I cried. Not to say cry...but a few tears keeps on rolling down. I couldn't control it. Emo...emo.. Maybe it's the time of the month again...