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Taken from The Bund across the Huangpu River. Amazing isn't it. It will be much more amazing if I have got a DSLR with me.


They don't have shopping malls like we do in smaller city, so we have to walk quite a distance to get things that we want. Walk walk walk...



Nearby a Chinese Temple...loadsa stairs... :(



Isn't she cute? She's one the the many typical Chinese girl in one of the many old village in Jiangnan Province. Really cute one, she's so sweet she offered me a sweet that she's holding.


Another temple. One of the many many temples that I have visited. All are situated up on very high hills. Now I have got muscular legs. Muahaha...

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I m not happy...I m sad...I feel so lonely...oh so lonely. The trip was great but I feel lonely. I was wondering why I got there with my aunt? I feel so so so lonely after nearly more than half a year after my break up. Wahaha...finally I know I m normal afterall. I should have dated the tour guide...I should have...Dats when I think I m very dependable on people mentally.

Anyway on the other hand, I had a series of unfortunate events when I was there. I tripped 3 times (2 times on the streets of Hangzhou because some Chinese man stepped on my specs and I can't see the road clearly, one time in front of the largest Buddha statue in the world in Wuxi...maybe becoz I never pray), mistakenly went into a male's toilet becoz I don't understand the sign on the door...and I saw an uncle doing his business there turned red, sprained my ankle 5 times, bought a very expensive item which I don't really like that much, it costs me a BOMB just becoz my aunt likes it...I had "free-shows" everyday in the public toilet (because Chinese women there don't like to close the door when they are doing their "business")...and so on...

The thing I like the most about China would be the weather...I like winter, those cold chilly weather...it feels so much nicer and less tiring. We visited nearly all the Chinese gardens available in Jiangnan Province (which kinda bore me), Chinese temples (which I don't really go and I don't understand a single Chinese words written on the boards), climb loadsa stairs, travelled a lot, too much to say it here but it's better to travel in a cold weather rather than the sticky hot Malaysian weather. It was below 0 degrees nearly every night...it feels so nice but I don't like the clothing part, too many to carry and wear. But I still like winter...woo...can't wait for another winter. It feels so hot here, so humid, I m actually sweating like a pig now.

I m just too tired to continue. Most of my tour mates got sick and some vomitted inside the plane. Poor thing. I know I m going to get sick soon enough becoz my body already started to ache. Another day tomorrow...New semester starts tomorrow. My nightmare begins now!!!

Seriously, I think One Utama should add more parking places. It took me nearly half an hour to find a parking lot and half an hour to wait for the cars slowly moving to get out from the building. And that's not frustfrating until your friend decided to cancel the "date". He's lucky I didn't get angry, but then he turn up becoz I told him to take his time but please "do show ur face". And then he's a bad influence, now that I spent nearly RM500 today, and I nearly got this:

Isn't that a beauty? My hands just can't stop caressing it...aww...and I duno if the salesman keeps on brain washing me or my friend who keeps on saying this is good compared to his Nikon D80 or it is becoz of love at first sight? It has all I want but the thing is I have to spend a lot in uprading them as time goes by...A LOT (definately in the future)...most important of all are the features...I m paying tonnes for the features. Jeez. It makes me feel guilty. Should I get it? My Shanghai trip already costs me more than 3K...This one 4K...Too much for my Christmas present from me to me don't you think?

Falling in Love...with Shanghai

I m so gonna like Shanghai I think. I was browsing thru Flickr for Shanghai photos and oh man...my passion for photography is getting higher and higher despite the cold weather there (min -1). And also it makes me feel that I really need a DSLR as in taking pictures the proper way after years of using my 2 faithful Nikon digicams. The reason why I don't wanna get it since I started out as a photographer is that my boss only pay me peanuts compared to what he paid for GettyImages. Hmmph...But now it seems that my interest is more important that comparing the pay. Oh well, since he's so nice to me all these while...I m gonna get one next month after my first pay in 2007, yeap, he only pay me like 2-3 times a year. So now there are 3 DSLR which I like very very much, which one should I get...Sony...Canon...or a Nikon...Hmm....decisions again...(sigh).

Can't wait for Shanghai.

Oh my kezboard is so so german now...I duno whz it is like tis...z becoming y and y becoming z and umlauts when I wanna use the aprostrophe, it becames an... ä...whz whz whz...I cant even tzpe a question mark...LOL. It is nearlz 2.30 am now. I canät sleep.

Everyone....no matter what...you must really really watch Borat for once in your life. It's really funny. It's been quite a while since I laugh like a mad dog in front of the screen. No doubt, Malaysia gonna ban it for sure. No way we can watch it in cinemas. But it's worth the watch. Kudos to Sascha Baron Cohen (the lead actor). Brave act, silly enough, I don't think any other actors dare to do whatever you did in Borat.

Yeah, you see, I spend my pathetic days now with watching a new movie everyday. It was Happy Feet yesterday, Borat today and Breakfast at Tiffany's tomorrow. I stop eating like a pig becoz I m out of food and also I got bored of eating like that. Finally!!!

I m still thinking of my decision to temporary stop work. Still need an answer. But I m in no rush though. Another alternative would be continue working but not so much, just enough to cover my spendings...maybe that's better.

Oh yah, before I forget....Happy Birthday Julian!!! Alles Gute zum Geburtstag!!!

Decisions decisions

What a busy week...with piles of photos to be edited, tonnes of news to be read, and loadsa other things to be done. I just love working for now. Loadsa things to learn, new experiances, etc etc. On the other hand, I m considering of stopping work for the next one and a half years. Which means focus 100% on my studies (which I never did before in my life) till I graduate. For once...I felt like wanting to have good results again. It's so not me to say that. But it's the most positive thing I've ever decided in years. Tough decision there becoz I m used to spending "quite a sum" every month. It's gonna be tough. I m not sure yet. If I really do that, I have to forget about my DSLR, my holidays, etc etc...which I think it's impossible. Very impossible. A habit of 4 years can't be changed in just one day.

I can't depend on my parents as they won't give me what I want. So the question is, to stop or not to stop? If I stop, I will be able to get better results as in more A's and no longer the "just pass" me. But if that happens, my perfectionism will come back again. I suffer from my perfectionism years ago, making me suffer as I wanted to make sure everyting is 100%. And when I was 16, I learn to let go. And from there, I m a happier person. I learn to let every tough/sad emotions easily. Why do I choose to have better results when it doesn't bother me at all since I came to this world? Peer pressure I guess. I feel there's a need to be better than what I m now. Rushing to finish assigments in 3-5 days when other people took 2-3 months...it's not good. Study last minute for exams and tests...it's not good. Guessing the vocabularies with every available answers for every questions asked...it's bad. Opening my book (for the subject I dislike) only when it's the end of the semester...it's hopeless. Hmm...should I stop? But when I stop I cant guarentee to stay with my books. I might end up having other plans since I m always doing someting...Awww...can't make up my mind.

For now I think I m having some kinda eating disorder. I can't stop eating. I don't feel full at all. Everyday, I drank half a bottle of mango yogurt drink, 2 granola bars, 2 units of mango pudding, banana and nuts cereals, 5 mochis, and that's excluding meals. And I m still feeling very hungry now. Gonna dig for food now. And think...

Heart Attack

This morning I woke up, showered, put on some nice presentable clothes, make-up...becoz need to look good besides representing my company's image and giving good first impression(whom I thought is my boss's sister-in-law). And to my horror...he's actually my boss's wife. WTF??? I really can't accept it. Too shocking and it gave me a small heart attack. I got so shocked, I couldn't help but to feel very uneasy. I thought he already had erm....2. And this should be number 3. She knew about the other 2. And she's okay with it. I feel so uneasy. And then her 2 kids keeps on hugging and kissing me for one whole day. They don't want to let me go. Oh gawd!!! I m beginning to dislike kids. Seriously. For a while it's okay. I just can't imagine me having one. Not in the near future. So there I m giving "lecture" for hours and hours. Teaching her how to operate the printer aswell, basically doing everything like from A to Z. Went to KLCC aswell and also taking care of her 2 kids indirectly becoz they don't want to let me go...hugging and kissing me all the way. My face is full of their saliva now. I m so damn sticky like UHU glue and tired both mentally and physically.

On the other hand, I can't imagine the loneliness of having to share a husband to 2 other women. She told me everyting although I just met her today. A really nice lady who had gone through a lot of things. This I can tell. I m not as "generous" as her. I can't share my man like that. Impossible. Is it becoz of money? Or there're true love?

But the best thing would always be the food. For tea time she brought me to this lil indian shop selling all sorts of Indian cuisine and there I m eating like a pig becoz I've been starving for whole half day without lunch. I ate like a pig, tasted all sorts of curry and spicy food. I feel so relieve. Becoz I can't tell anyone how weird it felt to train my boss's WIFE. Although it may seem like a normal situation which I don't really have to over-react about it. But I know loads more, i know some secrets...u know...secrets...

I can say today went well, I got a chance to learn new things and given a chance to do more work which means more pay. Wahahaha...soon I will be able to get my dream holiday soon or my dream DSLR. Hopefully...

And again, I get the same comment from the people I trained. "I was expecting a woman in her 30's to train me, I didnt expect someone young like you. You looked like a 16 year old to me. I got so shocked".

I m not happy when people say I look like 16 becoz it makes me feel small and useless.

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I met 2 taxi drivers today. Both flirted with me so much I can't take it anymore I felt like slapping them in their face but I hafta remain calm...They wanted to give me their numbers aswell but I told them I don't need them. Bahahaha...

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Tomorrow's a Sunday. And since I m smart enough for today to teach her everything in one day. I m free tomorrow. Finally. But I've got no plans for tomorrow. What should I do? Work again? Work is fun when there're people competing with you. Since it's a Sunday. Hmmm...maybe spring clean the house again...

Changes changes

*Breathes in*
*Breathes out*
*Phewwww*

What I dislike the most about people is that their constant changes in their plans and people like me have to follow their plan. First is the person I m trainning (5 days late), second is the trip. How can that tour agent made the wrong reservation and wrong place. I wanted a Shanghai not a Beijing. Jeez...And also I found out that, the person I m about to train is my Boss's sister-in-law. Which is quite freaky. So so freaky. Okay, I got to go back to do some chores now. Ta!

Remember December

Wabedabedoo...zubadeboo...badeboo...singing back to my normal life after 2 weeks of holiday doing nothing but climbing loadsa stairs, baking myself in the sun, eating loadsa loadsa food, etc etc. With loadsa funny stuff happening in between. Being stupid and forgetful for the whole 2 weeks, lost my cellphone, being able to buy a Children ticket at the Singapore Science Centre, being "underweight", getting loadsa phone numbers from loadsa taxi drivers (from Hairy to Non Hairy), found out that there're more good looking guys in Penang than in KL, more cute chicks in Singapore than in Malaysia, found out that birds are scary, taken loadsa pictures, ate loadsa food, spent loadsa money, found out why Muar is called Muar, found out that there're loadsa staircases in Malaysia (which I don't really like), met loadsa friendly people and best of all being "married" without kids (so interesting that people like to urge you to have kids becoz it's a "LOVE" thing...loadsa things which I can't list down here becoz the list is so long...it streches from North to South of Malaysia. But it's really funny...I felt so stupid all the time.

So now, after the holiday, I've got loadsa things coming up. Can't wait for another holiday again...Seriously.

Let's see...what I have to do before my uni starts again:

4: uni subjects registration, work
5: passport photo for China Visa and banking stuff, work
6: work in the morning, meeting friends in the evening maybe or spa/facial in the evening
7: whole day reserve for friends (if I don't show up they will put some GPRS thing inside my body so that they know where I go)
8: work, edit photos, spring clean the house again
9: Give training, work
10: Give training, work
11 till 16: Work work work (free for movies, coffee, etc, just gimme a call)
17 till 24: Shanghai Trip
25: Christmas (probably stay in bed...recovering from jetlag
26: Uni starts (my nightmare begins here)

So, this is my December. Another busy month indeed.