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I am stress but I m not stress. Get what I mean?

I know you don't, because I don't aswell.

Maybe it's been a while that I've been working and studying like a dog...even dogs don't do work and study like me. :(

I don't blardy care what will happen after this. I am DOOMED!!!
EXAMS= DOOMED + Bad Stomach

I am so not in the mood. Whenever I am overly stress I will have stomachache like 5 times a day, each time after each meal for nothing. How sad.

So I happily browse the web and happily call my best buddy a few times today, asking for job employment webbies. And the next thing I know is that I have applied for 6 companies all situated not in Malaysia except for that "Big Hotel". As far as I can remember, one in Indonesia, and a few in Singapore. Hehe. I will have places to stay with my own room in Indonesia and Singapore (what more can I ask for?). But I am not applying for those in Thailand although I have relatives all over Thailand, from north to south. That country is only good for holidays. And I have headache everytime I go there, because of the language barriers. "No speaking Engrishhhh. England don know." OMG!!!

I am just trying my luck. My friend told me that she only get replies from those companies after a month. WOW! Well, no rush. I am still living in the Dark Ages. I have no idea at all for my future, a sudden blackout since I enter Uni.

My grandma was really worried about me when I told her about my UN plans. I said I wanna work for UN and that I need to pursue my masters first if I wanna work with them and yada-yada...all the plans and suddenly her facial expression changed...and she said,
"You're a girl you know. You have to get married and have your own family."

Because...to her, working in UN means a lot of travelling and no chance of meeting men and no chance of settling down and also that I will probably marry someone from some weird country.

I know I am a girl. But I have no plans in the near future to get married and breed. I am still terrified of screaming kids and those uncles who are interested in me terrifies me. I don't hate guys, I am just not ready. And my other side of the family is also worried about me because they felt weird, I am already in my 20s and I am not dating or seeing anyone. Some of them thought I am bi. OMG!!!

Then, I told them,"Wait...be patient, one day I will bring back a boyfriend."
Then my another grandma said,"I am already in 90s, how long you want me to wait? The grave is calling me." Why do old people have to use their age to "threaten" their grandchildren to get a boyfriend or get married? Apart of me felt sad to hear that, but apart of me will be much more sadder if I marry the wrong guy and end up like Britney Spears. Jeez...bad. And I am not a girlfriend material either. Wahahaha.

Okay, back to job hunting now. Applying jobs is really addictive. The feeling is like how I got hooked to Neopets (yonks and yonks ago...), Facebook and etc.

Happy Easter!!!

PC: I wanna have babies with you
Me: OH PUHLEEZE...PLEASE DON'T MAKE ME THROW UP. I DON'T SEE ME HAVING ANY IN THE FUTURE.
PC: But you will...with me.
Me: OMG!!! PLEASE GET LOST!!!

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You know how frustfrated am I when I have so many things under my sleeve and suddenly someone said that to me? I was fuming with a 45800 degree Celcius flame on top of my head when I heard that. I wonder why in this particular year, I attracted so many pathetic people talking to me like that. Do I look like I m that fertile? OMG!!!

Next week I am going to be so so so DOOM. I have so many 40% exams, presentations and passing up of assignments in a span of 4 days. Damn. I wish I can survive. Pray pray pray. Wish me luck people!

There will be a change of date of my travels in May. I might be flying off one week earlier and maybe I will come back 1-2 weeks later...I wish...I really wish that I can come back 3-4 weeks later so that I can visit New York and other states aswell. Huhuhuhuhu...Then I have to push my European plan a bit furthur than planned. Argh...I still don't know. My family is urging me to continue my Masters. (They don't know how much I hate studying...) I don't want to think about anything now. I just wanna survive...survive for next week then my finals.

1 and a half more months till FREEDOM!!! Woooohooo!!!

BTW, Happy Easter everybody. Send me some easter eggs kay...

ARGHHHH!!!!!

You know how much I wanna kick people's ass now?

Very!!!!

Today is not my day. I am damn f*cking pissed. @$%#&*(@%^@)!*#&&!#^!!!!!

I wish I can cloned myself into 3 new me.
- one for work
- one for translation work
- one for being the point of attention for everybody

OMFG!!! I am indeed very pissed. I can't explain it into words. If I have a nuclear bomb right one, yes, just ONE. One is enough. I would drop it here. Seriously. I don't care of I die with them, just let me die, I wouldn't wanna suffer from radiation. End of the world. Or perhaps I need 50 to destroy the world. ARGHHHH!!!!

I m going nuts. Whatever happens, I don't blardy care. I need to breathe. I wanna chop off all the trees in Amazon, I wanna burn all the Pirahnas, I wanna melt 30 percent of Greenland and boil the melted ice with those problematic people that suffocates the world in a big couldron, I wanna throw sperm whales on the stupid people that are making my life so miserable!!!! Arghhhh....

I am going to burst soon. ARGHHHHHH...DAMN IT!!!

Tell me I don't need new glasses

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Apparently this guy, whose name is Azali Azlan scored 21As in the recent SPM examination. My god! 21A's is like the amount of A's I got in my 2 years of SPM which also includes monthly test and self-given A's. Duhhhh...gosh...I felt so stupid.

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Why on earth did he chose to sit for 21 subjects anyway? Do he need that much of A's? No one ever asked me about my results after my SPM (maybe they know I am hopeless, so they better not ask me about it).

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I would like to know if he has any social life, or did he surf the net, or did he eat on time? Or did he even watch TV. How???

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Azali, if you are reading this...tell me your secrets to longevity...urm, I mean how you manage your time with 21 subjects, it's like having 21 kids you know? If I have 21 kids, i think about 18 or 19 of them will die of starvation.

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You are going to be the 9th Wonder of the Academic World. What motivates you to be with the books for such a long span of time? I salute you.

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The 8th Wonder would be me...needless to explain why. Hehe.

Offers

Someone is offering me:

- a BMW
- monthly allowance of a few thousands (in Ringgit of course)
- endless love and attention...Tender Loving Care...woooooooo
- free delievery service of any food of my choice anywhere in KL or PJ to my doorstep whenever I felt hungry or whenever I need food with just a phone call (sounds tempting!)
- Sunset/ sunrise trip with him maybe once a month (OMG! I don't find looking at sunset or sunrise a romantic thing to do)
- protection from bullies (erm...when I don't bully anyone?)
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But I turned down the offer.
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Because he wants me to be his girlfriend.
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And erm...I have no appetite? Erm...no appetite to eat when I see him. I can't date someone who makes me hungry-less. I will be starving and maybe...one fine day in the future, I might be anorexic. I can't let that happen, can I?

He's 10 years older than me. OH no.....not again. Yeah, I have pretty much attracted a lot of old man these days. And yeah, he's my high school senior. And I don't date anyone from that-place-where-I-grew-up. It's dangerous. My Papa and my Mama will faint. My dogs will also faint.

Pimples

Why do I hate myself so much these days?
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Because I don't have a life

Everyday...for the past one month or is it two..all I did was:

wake up - eat - go to class - come back - eat - continue my translation work and work - sleep - wake up in the middle of the night - eat - continue my translation work again - sleep

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wake up - eat - do my translation work - work - sleep - eat - translation again - work - translation again - sleep - eat - translation - sleep

Very meaningless to have a life like that. I woke up very grumpy everyday and I went to bed with a lot of things in my mind. I have pimples popping out every single day. By the end of April I will have a lot of spots on my face. I am so sick of using pimple cream, I use mouth wash on them, yes I am talking about Listerine or Oral -B...works like magic. Just dab it on before you sleep and leave it overnight on your face. The next day, the swell is gone. I don't wanna look ugly. I wanna be pretty. I need my facials but I have no time to lose. I felt so devastated right now.

I think I felt devastated because I felt like puking when I see myself in the mirror. That explains why I am so emotional today.

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Viewing about 3000 photos today doesn't help much. In fact, I felt more stressful than before. I have responsibilities that I need to take, not leaving them aside. Arghhh....

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It's not easy being EASY


When it comes to making other people happy, I am no doubt the biggest loser. But who is going to make me happy? No one...

I am talking about pulling a happy face, attending to everyone's needs...but who's going to attend my needs? No one...

Why do I always have to be the one attending to everyone's need like organizing things, helping them, etc etc and no one would ever do that to me? Who's going to shower me with his/her attention when I need it? No one...

Living with a world full of fakies is one thing, pretending nothing has happened is another.


Life sucks!

Knowing thyself

OMG!!! Sometimes I felt like banging my head on the laptop. For nearly a week now, all I did was:

1) Translation
2) Translation
3) Translation

with minimal food and sleep in between.

Freedom is so near yet so far. The steps are getting steeper and harder to climb. But I will finish it...hopefully. Argh...I need motivation. What is life without motivation?

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I received a call from Blue Coat Singapore this morning. Yeah, that big company...I was blur. I can't even remember if I have applied for that company. Or did I really send my CV to them. Owh...I get so confused. I am so out of this world right now. But if I got a job interview or anything...the branch in Malaysia should have called me right. So it's just another wasted effort.

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It has come to a point that I don't care for the things that people say to me anymore. Maybe just for today. I have got thousands of things to do right now and I can't afford to "care" about them.

I need McDonalds...I need HOLIDAY!!!