Busy day

Finally I got sumtin good to do. I drove my relatives around my neighbourhood from PJ. And tomorrow more shopping at their favourite IKEA. Tired. Need some sleep now. Gonna dream about IKEA today. Hahaha.

Moving on too fast?

What would people think when someone who had just broke up with her boy and adi in the verge of starting a new relationship?

- Owh that BITCH! I knew it there's a third party behind that break-up
- She's such a flirt. Wonder if she's like that when she's in a relationship
- She can't live without men huh? Cheapo
- What's up with her? One moment she's crying like the end of the world, one moment she's so damn happy like she's in heaven
- I wonder what ever happened to her. She's such a sweetie last time but now...hmm...bitchy.
- That guy gonna cheat her. He's just taking advantage of the break-up. Ya know, girls are vulnerable enough during that stage...

See...people can't see you happy. People...people. I m not starting a new relationship with anyone, stop the rumours. I've learned my lesson. Let time be the judge. Need some good timing that's all. And also, I wont let any rumours besets me. On the other hand, I don't give a damn wat people thinks about me. I felt that life is short enough. So you guys out there, if u like someone go for it. Rumours are meant for paparazzis. :)

I m fine thank you!

Yeah I know I m very early today. Actually I havent sleep since I got back at 5am this morning. Went to Passion with B1, B2 and L. Had a binge. B2 had a reunion with his old schoolmates while I was there to see and drink with them. I refuse to go actually, because with a swollen eye, I can't meet anyone. Like hantu ya know. Don't want to scare anyone especially in the middle of the night. They might get heart attack. Was having eye pain actually but the loud music sway me away.

They're really good drinkers because they drink like mad. A big big bottle of Black Label was down to the last drop at the end of the night. They're drunk of course. Some alcohol booze really makes u feel better. I m feeling a lot lot better now. But for the whole night I have to watch over Miss L who constantly pass out. A good experiance. Had some mamak noodles before I reach home. Thanks ya all for making my day. A special thank you for the one who successfully digged me out from the house. You know who u r. I was a lil bit high but I did control myself. I like that feeling actually where u r like half consious and don't feel the heart pain. And now I m still sleepless. Hmmm....time to find something to do then. Cleaning the toilet maybe. Laterz....

Awful Break-up Experiance, Beautiful Memories

Why do we have to go through all these? I met up with my ex today. He hold me so tight. But I told him it's over. So he let go off me. He gets emo, I get emo. He nearly cried in public, so do I. I cried for 5 hours in front of him. We realised we loved each other so much but too bad it's over. Nothing can be done to solve it. It's truly great experiance to be with him. I did learned a lot from him. He told me to be strong. He's sorry because he couldn't take care of me. Loving someone and making him/her happy at the same time is a very difficult thing to do. That's why there's breakup and that's why there's courtship. We search far and wide for that special someone. That's very true. A good advice. He also told me to stay with my decision and don't change it. We're incompatible in the sense of age and thinking and sometimes family background.

I felt so hurt to see him cry. He had cried for a week. And now he's crying again. I told him I don't want this to end but he wouldn't keep in touch with me even on my bday, etc that makes me feel frusfrated. Lucky, he didnt gave me a hard time and did support me all the way today. He didnt say things that hurt me. I was expecting some bash up moments. We kissed and hugged for the very last time. When I was driving back, I cried in the car again. And when I reached home, I did cried again and again. It's my decision to leave him and why am I feeling so thrashed?

It's over and it's time for me to start a new life. My first break-up and so it hurts like hell. 2 yrs and 3 months have gone down the drain. Long distance relationship needs communcation and trust. On the other hand, it's a good thing this relationship ends not because of a 3rd person. Now I shall go back to weep...I need sometime to cure. Need to get rid of missing him. Time to become a new ME.

Energetic

I feel so energized today altho I slept at 4am yesterday and woke up at 8am this morning. I don't think I sleep well. But who cares? I m so competative today. I m so in the mood to snatch everything work available for me. I've been on a very unproductive semester break. Online till 2-3am each day. And will oni wake up when everyone's buying lunch. I got 6 people today who asked me the same questions, "so early today?". Yeah, weird seeing me in the morning rite? They havent see me in the morning since 3 weeks ago. No wonder.

I got my exam results. Oh well, it's bad but I m glad I can go to the next level. Next and final level for German proficiency before morphology and stuff like that. I m gaining interest with this language. I found out that there're loadsa people in Malaysia who speaks it. Even a simple "danke". No longer "gracias". World is changing. And the best thing is most engineers speak German here...teehee..wat a cheeky thought ;p

Oh ya, my detox diet? Hmm...I plan to stop it. I cant stand it. But it would be a waste if I stop it just like that. Maybe lil by lil I can cope with that. It's for my own health. After years of junk food, unhealthy food, those toxins need to be washed away somehow. I want a healthier body. I wonder when I'll be motivates to run the field. No more gym. Gym dont exist here. Ahahaha.

Thanks all for now folks...Sleepy....*yawn*

I've been TAGGED!!!

Yaay, Thanks Jay!!! U rock!!!! Haha...Here's the questionnaire:

Take the book next to you, go to page 18 and quote line 4:
Cresent, headquarters of the Secret Service, Tweed (It's from a book from Colin Forbes - Shockwave)

Reach out as far as you can with you’re right arm – what can you grab?
A blue and white vase

What was the last TV-Show you watched?
Er...well, I m in control of the remote control, I pressed it here and there and I think I didn't really stay on a certain show...well...maybe Project Runway. I hope it counts.

With the exception of you’re computer, to what are you listening atm?
Kelly Clarkson - Because of You

When did you you do a step out of you’re door for the last time?
Just a moment ago. Picked up some laundry

What did you do before answering this questionnaire?
Drinking some yucky detox diet stuff. Eukkss....

What are you wearing atm?
A shirt and short pants

Did you dream last night?
Did I sleep last night?...Maybe some funny dream...

When was the last time you had to laugh?
2 hours ago when someone Skype-d me.

What occupies the walls of the room, in which you are currently sitting?
A very nice calender

Did you see something strange lately?
Food....I m having hallucination because of the yucky detox diet.

What do you think about this questionnaire?
It can be interesting if u ask more interesting questions

What was the last movie you watched?
Keeping Mum (yeah too long ago, I know, busy la)

What would you buy if you’d be rolling in money?
Buy all the things that I want, do some charity (I m a very charitable person)

Tell something about yourself, which I don’t know yet.
Shhh...I wanna be Michael Schumacher.

If you could change one thing at our world, what would that be?
World Peace. Hmm...that wouldn't happen anyway. Maybe..hmm...Gucci and Jimmy Choo giving away free shoes every single day for every single women in the world?

Do you like dancing?
Depends...

George Bush
President of the United States. Duh...

If you’re first child was a girl, how would you call it?
Aldeenaferrerapereera

And if it was a boy?
I'll let my husband name it since I named the girl

Would you see it as a possibility for you to emigrate?
Of course. Why not? If that place has everyting I need. Sure thing.

What would you tell god reaching the heaven’s gate?
Why some people are so damn rich and why people are so damn poor?

Five people you want to answer this questionnaire:
Julian
Yvonne
ZhaoBin
Shelly
Melody

Detox Diet - Day 1

I m on detox diet can u believe it? OMG! That green stuff taste really really bad. My friend recommend it to me. It's called Melilea. It's damn fucking yucky. It tastes really bad and it's so expensive for someting that's so hard to swallow. And u know what u must do while u r on a detox diet? lemme tell u...tis is just my day 1 and I m feeling like I m in hell.

- no fatty food, no fast food, no junk food, no preserved food (not a problem because I don't like those aswell)
- no butter, no sugar, no MSG, no salt, no artifical flavouring (still ok to me, it's a fact we cant eat that)
- no processed food (well...if cakes were considered in this category, hmm...a lil hard to resist, but hey i got DETERMINATION)
- no heavy meals like rice, noodles, etc (no rice? oh god!)
- loadsa fruits and vegetables without oil (hmm..sounds like cow food, bird food and chicken food)

Ok, I have to remain this for 3 days to see the difference. My friend's colleague lost 7kg in 7 days. I don't know if it's true but it's good to detox ur body once in a while. Damn, I have to down that slimy green stuff 3 times a day to replace my breakfast, lunch and dinner. And I forgot to mention, I can't even have a glass of milk. This is so damn gross I tell u. No one would ever like to be in my condition. And now since I bought the whole bottle of the Melilea Powder, I have to finish it. Damn. Hmm...u know what that motivates me? A nicer body and better complexion. HELP!!!!! :(

Laughter is the best medicine

"Just think how much the ocean would be if sponges didn't live there"...Steven Wright

It's kinda hard to be a joker sometimes. Not everyone can catch ur joke. I told this to one of my friends, she said. "Oh I didnt know sponges live in the sea"...Duh!!!!

"Monday is an awful way to spend 1/7 of your life"....That's a fact but not really a joke to me. I hate Mondays. I love Friday. I hate Sundays aswell, it makes me feel like my weekend is coming to an end.

"If Fed Ex and UPS were to merge, would they call that FedUP?"
It's a classic one but still laugh-able.


Thanks for all ur support. I m feeling better now after what had happened. Thanks to one and all. Muaks!!!

Turn over a new leaf

Yeah...I m turning into a new leaf yeah hopefully after what had happen. Although the memories is deep enough to make u think everytime u passed a particular place or touch a particular thing, hopefully time will heal. If ever I have the chance, I would very much wanted to tell him this:

"Although the days spent with you are very wonderful sometimes, u think that I m THE ONE, u make me feel special but sometimes we couldn't get what we want forever like what u can do with ur money. I hope u are matured enough to handle ur future relationship and don't treat every relationship the same like what we had. Don't hate me for what had happened, don't hold grudge for what had happened. Although u may had many relationships before me, I still feel u don't know what the real meaning of love. Don't you ever think I fool around with ur feelings as I don't and have never been disloyal to u. It's not a matter of third party or wat-so-ever, it's just that I feel we are not compatible and it's no use holding back ur time. It's time for u to look for a proper one a.k.a the suitable one that can be ur wife. I m only good for fun now but not long-term comitment like what ur parents hoped for. I m barely 21 this year. Things seems to go wrong when I m with u. I felt ashamed. All the best in the future.n With love..."

There goes my love piece. It's time to let go and start a new life again!

Have I done the right thing?

I felt so guilty after what had happened yesterday. I felt I have done the wrong thing. I felt so bad. I cried till my eyes gone swollen. I thought he would hold me back but he didn't. He just asked me to leave him alone. And I will always remember what he said by," enjoy ur freedom". A relationship of 2 years has just gone down the drain. I still love him very much but I don't think we can be together forever. We're incompatible. I knew this when we first date. I love him but too bad we are incompatible for each other. And why do I keep quiet about this? Because don't want to hurt him. I don't want to hurt myself seeing he would get hurt. I don't know what he thinks about me. We're so called in a relationship, do what other normal couples did, felt so close and yet so far. It's an emotional torture. Will it be a good thing? Why did I dump him? Will I regret? I had made the decision a few months before this. I had think and cried enough. I hope I made the right decision. Well...wanna know how bad my boyfriend is? I had a post about him, "useless boyfriend"... I