Happy

Wheeee...I felt so happy today.

I don't know why, maybe because it's Saturday and I don't have to pour water for people, put coke into the office's fridge, water plants, open doors, carrying boxes, listening to phone calls, etc etc. Wheeeee......I am an overpaid maid. So I am happy. How ironic.

Yesterday night I went out for tea with my girlfriends and we had such a great time laughing at ourselves. We laughed so hard, I think the people in that restaurant think that we're out of our mind. But I really can't help it. I was really happy for that moment.

I nearly cried yesterday in the office in front of my colleagues. And due to the fact that I don't want to show people my weakness....I hang on there. Breathing deep every time the tears feels like rolling down. I had a bad day at work yesterday. Really bad. I was treated worse than a dog. Enough said. I called my girlfriends right after that because I know they will support me whenever I needed them.

A few more days to go...Just hang on there. Breathe.

I will never be hurt by the words from my boss. Sticks and stones may break my bones, but your words will never hurt me. I will never ever let my tears roll down in that office. Never. I will never give up. I will never ever let you belittle me, I will never ever let you climb over my head just because you're the boss.

I shall return to my bed now as I find peace there. I am so in love with my bed. Sleep is darn important.

WORK SUX

I am pissed. I am pissed. I am really pissed!

Why on earth some people at work who like to dig out shits from 2005 and blame it all on me and it's not even my fault. Damn it.

They think I am that FREE to go meddle with the shit? I have better things to do. OMFG. WTF is wrong with the world. I am so hopeless. Is it because I look too nice to be bullied? Or because I am too bitchy that people hate me. (Yeah rite, bitchy? I don't even care what is wrong with their life, how bitchy can I get?)

Patience my friend (I am now talking to myself)...patience...I have been damn blardy patient all these while. I have my limits too.

Is it because my past life (if I have one), I killed their dogs or cats or fish that they want to take revenge on me in this life? Is it because I stole their food or drank their wine that they need to kill my appetite?

Fairytales are lies, love stories are big liars, happy-ever-after ending in any movies or books should be burn. There's no such thing as happiness eh? Where's happiness? Show me what is happiness.

I don't believe that happiness ever exist. I have been searching far and wide for it. What is the feeling of being happy? People always take away happiness from me. I hate it very much. First they take away happines and give me sadness. And the best part is that I have never ask for sadness.

ARGHHHHHHH...I wanna bite someone. Don't care if people call me a mad dog.

One more word to say: WORK SUCKS!!!

After I come back from my needed vacation in June, I am going to apply for another job. I can't tolerate anymore. This is like asking for divorce for work. I have been married to work for nearly 6 years, this is what I get? Owh....damn it.

Remember December

Wabedabedoo...zubadeboo...badeboo...singing back to my normal life after 2 weeks of holiday doing nothing but climbing loadsa stairs, baking myself in the sun, eating loadsa loadsa food, etc etc. With loadsa funny stuff happening in between. Being stupid and forgetful for the whole 2 weeks, lost my cellphone, being able to buy a Children ticket at the Singapore Science Centre, being "underweight", getting loadsa phone numbers from loadsa taxi drivers (from Hairy to Non Hairy), found out that there're more good looking guys in Penang than in KL, more cute chicks in Singapore than in Malaysia, found out that birds are scary, taken loadsa pictures, ate loadsa food, spent loadsa money, found out why Muar is called Muar, found out that there're loadsa staircases in Malaysia (which I don't really like), met loadsa friendly people and best of all being "married" without kids (so interesting that people like to urge you to have kids becoz it's a "LOVE" thing...loadsa things which I can't list down here becoz the list is so long...it streches from North to South of Malaysia. But it's really funny...I felt so stupid all the time.

So now, after the holiday, I've got loadsa things coming up. Can't wait for another holiday again...Seriously.

Let's see...what I have to do before my uni starts again:

4: uni subjects registration, work
5: passport photo for China Visa and banking stuff, work
6: work in the morning, meeting friends in the evening maybe or spa/facial in the evening
7: whole day reserve for friends (if I don't show up they will put some GPRS thing inside my body so that they know where I go)
8: work, edit photos, spring clean the house again
9: Give training, work
10: Give training, work
11 till 16: Work work work (free for movies, coffee, etc, just gimme a call)
17 till 24: Shanghai Trip
25: Christmas (probably stay in bed...recovering from jetlag
26: Uni starts (my nightmare begins here)

So, this is my December. Another busy month indeed.