When will it end?

I think I have just ended some sort of relationship with someone again.

I need someone who has a certain extent of maturity and not being childish all the time. And for now, I am really afraid to deal with my emotions especially when it comes to relationship.

For the past few years, my heart is broken and then mended and then broken again for so many times. So, yeah, today will be just another day like the other days where I broke people's heart or vice versa.

I am hoping the grey clouds will be away soon. Since I arrived to this small little city, I felt like a wrecked ship.