Offers

Someone is offering me:

- a BMW
- monthly allowance of a few thousands (in Ringgit of course)
- endless love and attention...Tender Loving Care...woooooooo
- free delievery service of any food of my choice anywhere in KL or PJ to my doorstep whenever I felt hungry or whenever I need food with just a phone call (sounds tempting!)
- Sunset/ sunrise trip with him maybe once a month (OMG! I don't find looking at sunset or sunrise a romantic thing to do)
- protection from bullies (erm...when I don't bully anyone?)
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But I turned down the offer.
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Because he wants me to be his girlfriend.
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And erm...I have no appetite? Erm...no appetite to eat when I see him. I can't date someone who makes me hungry-less. I will be starving and maybe...one fine day in the future, I might be anorexic. I can't let that happen, can I?

He's 10 years older than me. OH no.....not again. Yeah, I have pretty much attracted a lot of old man these days. And yeah, he's my high school senior. And I don't date anyone from that-place-where-I-grew-up. It's dangerous. My Papa and my Mama will faint. My dogs will also faint.

Pimples

Why do I hate myself so much these days?
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Because I don't have a life

Everyday...for the past one month or is it two..all I did was:

wake up - eat - go to class - come back - eat - continue my translation work and work - sleep - wake up in the middle of the night - eat - continue my translation work again - sleep

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wake up - eat - do my translation work - work - sleep - eat - translation again - work - translation again - sleep - eat - translation - sleep

Very meaningless to have a life like that. I woke up very grumpy everyday and I went to bed with a lot of things in my mind. I have pimples popping out every single day. By the end of April I will have a lot of spots on my face. I am so sick of using pimple cream, I use mouth wash on them, yes I am talking about Listerine or Oral -B...works like magic. Just dab it on before you sleep and leave it overnight on your face. The next day, the swell is gone. I don't wanna look ugly. I wanna be pretty. I need my facials but I have no time to lose. I felt so devastated right now.

I think I felt devastated because I felt like puking when I see myself in the mirror. That explains why I am so emotional today.

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Viewing about 3000 photos today doesn't help much. In fact, I felt more stressful than before. I have responsibilities that I need to take, not leaving them aside. Arghhh....

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How bad/good is my english?

My English is not that bad afterall...well, if I don't mix it up with German of course...

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Try this test: http://www.okcupid.com/tests/take?testid=14457200288064322170

No one

It's not easy being EASY


When it comes to making other people happy, I am no doubt the biggest loser. But who is going to make me happy? No one...

I am talking about pulling a happy face, attending to everyone's needs...but who's going to attend my needs? No one...

Why do I always have to be the one attending to everyone's need like organizing things, helping them, etc etc and no one would ever do that to me? Who's going to shower me with his/her attention when I need it? No one...

Living with a world full of fakies is one thing, pretending nothing has happened is another.


Life sucks!

Knowing thyself

OMG!!! Sometimes I felt like banging my head on the laptop. For nearly a week now, all I did was:

1) Translation
2) Translation
3) Translation

with minimal food and sleep in between.

Freedom is so near yet so far. The steps are getting steeper and harder to climb. But I will finish it...hopefully. Argh...I need motivation. What is life without motivation?

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I received a call from Blue Coat Singapore this morning. Yeah, that big company...I was blur. I can't even remember if I have applied for that company. Or did I really send my CV to them. Owh...I get so confused. I am so out of this world right now. But if I got a job interview or anything...the branch in Malaysia should have called me right. So it's just another wasted effort.

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It has come to a point that I don't care for the things that people say to me anymore. Maybe just for today. I have got thousands of things to do right now and I can't afford to "care" about them.

I need McDonalds...I need HOLIDAY!!!

OMG...another one

This is funny (at least I find it funny):

[10:50:05 PM] 구승회 says: hi
[10:51:36 PM] Me says: hi
[10:51:44 PM] 구승회 says: long time
[10:52:16 PM] 구승회 says: where are you?
[10:52:42 PM] Me says: at home
[10:53:04 PM] 구승회 says: hahaha
[10:53:08 PM] 구승회 says: i miss you
[10:53:11 PM] 구승회 says: do you miss me?
[10:54:16 PM] Me says: haha
[10:54:20 PM] Me says: very funny
[10:54:26 PM] 구승회 says: who??
[10:54:27 PM] 구승회 says: you?
[10:54:30 PM] Me says: you
[10:54:43 PM] 구승회 says: i am not funny
[10:55:49 PM] 구승회 says: do you need to me?
[10:55:57 PM] Me says: need?
[10:56:00 PM] Me says: what do u mean?
[10:56:12 PM] 구승회 says: do you want to me?
[10:56:17 PM] Me says: huh?
[10:56:20 PM] Me says: want what?
[10:56:23 PM] 구승회 says: me
[10:56:30 PM] Me says: i dont understand
[10:56:45 PM] 구승회 says: i will get you
[10:57:24 PM] Me says: get me?
[10:57:28 PM] 구승회 says: yes
[10:58:47 PM] 구승회 says: we are just friend?
[10:58:53 PM] Me says: yes
[10:58:54 PM] Me says: friends
[10:59:04 PM] 구승회 says: we are couple?
[10:59:18 PM] Me says: no
[10:59:23 PM] 구승회 says: why?
[10:59:24 PM] Me says: because we dont know each other
[10:59:46 PM] 구승회 says: okay
[10:59:58 PM] 구승회 says: bu i need to your heart
[11:00:20 PM] Me says: get other korean girls
[11:00:23 PM] Me says: they r nicerr
[11:00:29 PM] 구승회 says: no..
[11:00:31 PM] 구승회 says: i want to you
[11:00:44 PM] 구승회 says: i falling love
[11:01:17 PM] Me says: u cannot fall in love with me
[11:01:22 PM] Me says: because u dont know me
[11:01:32 PM] 구승회 says: we need to time
[11:01:41 PM] 구승회 says: we are first start
[11:01:43 PM] 구승회 says: love
[11:01:55 PM] Me says: first start?
[11:01:59 PM] 구승회 says: yes
[11:02:04 PM] 구승회 says: and i show you to all
[11:02:16 PM] Me says: show me to all?
[11:02:18 PM] Me says: what do u mean?
[11:02:29 PM] 구승회 says: i show you
[11:02:33 PM] 구승회 says: everything
[11:02:44 PM] 구승회 says: i show all of thing
[11:03:33 PM] Me says: what thing?
[11:03:43 PM] 구승회 says: my all
[11:03:47 PM] 구승회 says: my heart
[11:03:52 PM] 구승회 says: everything
[11:05:33 PM] Me says: ic
[11:05:34 PM] Me says: why me?
[11:05:46 PM] 구승회 says: i falling you
[11:05:51 PM] 구승회 says: we are couple now
[11:06:02 PM] Me says: noooooo...we cannot be a couple
[11:06:08 PM] 구승회 says: why?
[11:06:12 PM] 구승회 says: you say me ic
[11:06:42 PM] Me says: i c means "i see" means i m thinking
[11:06:47 PM] Me says: it doesnt mean anyhting
[11:06:57 PM] 구승회 says: okay
[11:07:04 PM] 구승회 says: but i will get you
[11:07:05 PM] 구승회 says: today
[11:07:13 PM] 구승회 says: plz
[11:07:58 PM] Me says: u cant get me today coz other ppl will get me
[11:08:19 PM] 구승회 says: other ppl???what mean?
[11:10:10 PM] Me says: other people means people in malaysia
[11:10:17 PM] 구승회 says: no
[11:10:23 PM] 구승회 says: i get you today
[11:11:18 PM] Me says: u cant get me becoz u r not here
[11:11:33 PM] 구승회 says: not important
[11:11:45 PM] 구승회 says: just tell me to love me
[11:11:47 PM] Me says: why not?
[11:12:11 PM] 구승회 says: i will go there
[11:12:18 PM] 구승회 says: just you wait me
[11:12:56 PM] Me says: i no wait u
[11:12:59 PM] Me says: u no wait me
[11:13:06 PM] 구승회 says: why?
[11:13:15 PM] 구승회 says: do you hate me?
[11:13:20 PM] Me says: i dont hate nor love
[11:13:20 PM] 구승회 says: i get you
[11:13:45 PM] 구승회 says: okay
[11:14:04 PM] 구승회 says: how do i get you?
[11:15:00 PM] Me says: there's no urm...way to get me
[11:15:40 PM] 구승회 says: okay
[11:15:46 PM] 구승회 says: today i fight you
[11:16:40 PM] Me says: no fight...dont fight..wont fight
[11:16:56 PM] 구승회 says: my meaning is i get you
[11:17:07 PM] Me says: dont be so agrresive okay
[11:17:12 PM] Me says: this is just skype


Okay...so this guy added me on Skype last year asking me about Malaysia. Being courteous and very ignorant at the same time, I let him stay in my list. And today gonna be the last day...of execution. Which means he will be deleted foerever and ever...muahahaha....

DESPERADOS...please stay away from me....gosh!!!

Magic?

These few weeks has been quite peaceful for me. I am happy that I am having a normal life for now. Sometimes it's THAT normal, I felt very uncomfortable with it.

I am serious. How can that happen? It's like magic. Abbrracadabbraaaaa...


Is it magic or I am having illusions?

Fantabulous not

Today, the 20th of February 2008, I felt pathetic and useless. Pathetic and useless because I am not as fantabulous like others, like C, M, L, S and P and not to mention E, Z and also R, T and Q (who are so fantabulous in their own way, be it the brain or the boobs). But if everyone is fantabulous, who is going to become the pathetic and useless loser like me who can make them feel fantabulous?

Blame it on the hormones...I am not feeling 100% happy today.

Dumb Blonde

Ohmmmmm...I am hungry...

I have another test tomorrow and my brain is refusing to suck all the information needed. Becoz I am damn blardy hungry rite now.

Ohmmmm....I think I need to hit the club next week. Or maybe the week after next week. That would be a good idea. Ohm....girls' night out with the girls and hopefully no old uncles.

February is a month of working hard and abandoning health.
March should be a month of working hard and partying hard aswell.
April should be a month of rushing for assignments and revising for exams.
May should be a month of travelling and shopping after the 2nd.
June should be the month of flirting around (bahh...will I? Haha. I have stopped fooling around since I was 18)
and there goes the same till September....

Ohmm........I have no idea what is going on with my life right now. Confusion. No idea at all. Keine Ahnung. Damn. Maybe I am a dumb blonde after all, minus the blonde hair.

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Career fair tomorrow at the university. Then another career fair in KL Convention Centre on the 29th this month. Ohmmm....see....I do go to career fairs to find a "good and secured" job. I do healthy activities...like looking for jobs....applying for companies that pay peanuts....all apart of my "RUN-AWAY-AND-LEAVE-MALAYSIA-FOREVER-PLAN". I am such a devil these days...