Painful...

"First cut is the deepest"...it's true. I just broke-up with my boyfriend of 2 years. It's damn painful. It's really hard to bear. I still love him though. But things dont go right...I need someone to console me...*sob*

Korean Drama Series

I don't know how they do it but they do attract/drag me to watch it no matter what. So far, I think I m madly with every single series I watched without fail. What is so interesting about them? I don't know. Last few years when Malaysian were on the Japanese drama craze...I dont seem to bother about it at all. I don't even know the name of leading actor of the GTO series until the 8th episode. I don't even care about who's Yutaka...Kanishiro...or who so ever. And recently I m head over heels for the leading man in "My Lovely Samsoon". I felt like a 14 year old drooling in front of the tv...aww...it's just so sweet.

Aww...even me and my grandma is crazy over him now....

Isn't he gorgeous? Hyun Bin is his name. There's also another korean actor that I like...his name is Won Bin

How nice rite? All the leng chais...are in Korea. No offence, but all the good hearted handsome guys in Malaysia are taken. So, Korea...here I come. Haha. Weird...I've never spent so much time looking for a certain actor/actress pictures. Just so weird. I m know for not "worshipping" anyone. But look what am I doing now :P

Free without the freedom

Just finished exam yesterday, felt like a bird flying free up in the air but still felt like flying in a very big cage, like those in Bird Santuary, where u can fly free but still limited to that area. I m having sleeping difficulties, now my sleeping time is the same with the people of the other side of the world. Now I m still very awake at 2am in the morning and will only wake up at noon since then. Now what should I do for this 2 months break? Besides working like usual. Sien, working like that for nearly 4 years. BUt what to do, it's the work that suits me the best, just because I m a student. Felt like travelling but don't know where. Where should I go?

Dutch Exam

My coursemate finished her paper 1 hour after the exam started, another one takes about one and a half hours and another one...1 hour 45 minutes and I took exactly 2 hours to finish. I felt so stressful looking at them. And I m mixing the 'het' word with the 'de' and also those personal pronouns. I know the answer but I mixed it all up. I cant bear to see my results. *Sob* And on Monday my nightmare begins, that's becoz I'll have to sit for 2 German papers which is for me equalvalent to Add Maths plus Dutch and some mixture of Physics.

Add Maths + Dutch Language + Physics = German Language

Yeah and maybe you'll be wondering why I m such a "clever" gal to go and choose this language. Well, I say it's FATE. I wanted to study French but suddenly the thought of having a German for Dummies book (before) made me change my mind. It's a good thing I study German language, at least at my first level someone offerred me RM500 to teach them German Language just for 2 hours per week. And she's willing to give extra if I m willing to teach English aswell. Well, yeah, I know my English sucks here but who cares? I will get paid if I accept the offer. And my english is getting worse, because I m building english sentences with German structure, verb second position...remmeber that. And even when talking to my friends. "What?" became "Was?" and "Quick!!!" became "Schnell!!!"
Heh, and for now, I m mixing up my German and Dutch like mixing up Malay and Indonesian language. Yeah a lot of mixing, I would have mix some cake ingredients, bake cakes with them and sell them and buy myself a nice comfy house and lead a simple life. And for god's sake those german nouns, they have 3 genders!!! And all the 4 cases which is Nominative, Accusative, Dative and Genitive.
Yeah, I know what you're thinking...I m nuts for choosing this kinda course where it's so damn scarce in Malaysia. I wonder sometimes...a bit lesser now. I just wanna get a paper qualification. Fate...my parents sent me to a private university for a Marketing course and look what I've gotten myself into? A language course in a local uni. Well, for now I m always looking at the bright side of the language. ;)

.: I got 2 paper to finish, one on the 24th and 27th. So to those of you reading my blog, I m sorry for the lack of updates and reply to ur messages. Thousand apologies. I need loadsa luck and support to get me through this. *Pray*...Awww...

hahaha...funny shit

no other jokes can crank me up today, not even "The Three Stooges"...not even "America's funniest home videos" and not even "The Gods must be Crazy"...I was in the exam hall answering those weird looking questions in the paper, I felt so damn stupid. I can't even think...I felt I had drank too much coffee. Coffee is bad when it comes to exam time, I think I m having illusions, I cant even think properly...Damn. And everyone's leaving the exam hall because this paper is just too easy for them and I was struggling till the very last second. I felt very bad. I was laughing at myself after I get out from the exam hall. Felt relieved but damn stupid. Who the hell who asked me to drink coffee just to stay up and eat all the facts and definations for one whole semester? I m having illusions till now actually. I can bear to see my grades. Well, if everyone thinks that tis paper is damn hard then it's okay for me, but it hurts my ear so much when everyone around me keep on emphazing how easy it was.

"That paper damn easy huh?"
"My gawd, it's so damn easy, I think I will get an A for this"
"I finished the paper at 4 o'clock, I've got so much time I don't know what to do"
"Wow, that was great! It's so easy to score"

Hello? Did they even think of my feelings? Hurts a lot but it's funny to me. Well, I m having illusions remmeber. Everything around me is funny now. I can't take caffeine. I must stop drinking.

why am i still here?

exam later at 3 pm and guess what...i m still here blogging....the more stressful i m the more time i wanna stick to my comp...i m hopeless...yeah..hopeless...gosh :(

Drag Queen

I will be having TITAS 2 exam tomorrow, this is my finals and guess what, I m still here surfing the net, writing testimonials for my friends and laughing my ass off with the tv series. And tomorrow's my TITAS 2 exam. What is TITAS? It's a exam made compulsory to all the local uni students in Malaysia so that we suffer more. And what izzit all about? Aha...TITAS 1 is all about Islam and its civilization. TITAS 2 is world civilization which includes Chinese, Indian, Japan and etc. And guess what? I m still in the first chapter. My frens have already flown to "China" and some to "Japan" and I'm still waiting in "KLIA" waiting to take off. I wonder if I can ever finish the whole book. For ur information, I havent touch this book since last week. I have never seen this book for the whole semester because I never attend the lecture class with this book or any lecture notes. This is such a big embarassment. Hopefully I don't fail. Okay, the korean series has just started, time to go...yeah, I will study after this. ;P

exam exam

yeah...exam stress...stress till I m not sure if i m a male or female...cant even remmeber my fullname....my addresss...owh...i m stress!!!

what a hot day

I m sweating like a pig, sticky like UHU glue, u can post my body anywhere just like post-it-notes becoz i m as sticky as that. I think I will need another 2-3 time shower after this. The air cond is not helping. I ban myself from ice-creams becoz I m on diet. Yes, very strict diet. I need a cup of peel fresh iced or iced lemon tea now. Any fruit juice will do. Oh, I miss watermelon juice. Actually I miss all the fruit juices available. Oh, I miss jelly with ice-cream. Hmm...maybe without the ice-cream. Maybe some jelly shakes. That's my favourite. Some flavoured jelly in iced lemon tea with longan. Aww...hot hot hot. What do u wish to have?

Imperfect

Felt really low today. I know I m imperfect. That's why no one ever appreciate me for who I m trully. What is it like to have a perfect brain, perfect body and perfect etc? Is that like happily ever after story? Just a thought...

Have u ever felt being imperfect? I m just an ordinary human. Why do people around me expects so much from me? I know who I m. Sometimes it's just so hard to be me. I wish I had something perfect. Owh...