Yeap, today I'm gonna talk about my chubbiness. I have got chubby cheeks, chubby body and chubby ahem...Everyting's so chubby, there's once my boyfriend called me "the chubbier chubby". That's very bad. I don't eat like a pig. But yet, I m still that chubby. And my chubbiness cause a lot of things. That includes:
1) Can't fit into nice dresses
2) Face too round not matter what make-up I put to make it round, so sometimes I m double the chubbiness if my make-up goes wrong
3) I m living indenial the fact that I m FAT (I m chubby ok)
4) I envy Kate Moss
5) I wish to be like no. 4)
6) I get jealous easily especially if someone like no.4) walks in front of me, I would have smack her with my chubby hands. (That's dangerous)
So that's my chubby story. What's urs?
March 31, 2006
March 28, 2006
Making life harder
I really don't undertsand some people who likes to make their lives harder. It's already very hard but why make it harder? U can get someting just by using Route A but instead of that they use Route G and then Route C and then Route A again. Duh...
I m the kind who dont want to go through unwanted nonsense. If there's a hurdle in front of me, I wil leap over it the easiest way and not by running away from it. Face it. I can say 70 percent of the people around me likes to take U-turns, unwanted road, but never ever a highway or a flyover. Dat's sad. So all humans are like that huh? Likes to make long cut and dun want to go with the flow? I duno. Maybe I m PMS-ing now. Emo.Emo. Emo.
I m the kind who dont want to go through unwanted nonsense. If there's a hurdle in front of me, I wil leap over it the easiest way and not by running away from it. Face it. I can say 70 percent of the people around me likes to take U-turns, unwanted road, but never ever a highway or a flyover. Dat's sad. So all humans are like that huh? Likes to make long cut and dun want to go with the flow? I duno. Maybe I m PMS-ing now. Emo.Emo. Emo.
March 26, 2006
MY future with KIDS
Yesterday, I was helping out to babysit my cousin bro for a while for around half an hour. I don't know why, I got this feeling of "against children" so suddenly popped out of me. Comparing half a year ago, I can still play with them, be very patient with them and care for them of course. Now I just wanna get rid of screaming kids and have a peaceful life. What am I thinking??? I used to like kids very much, I can hang around with them all night long and draw and listen to them. But I can't do that now. Is this another weird syndrome of mine? Of it's because I m too stress because of my daily duties?
And now I'm thinking of changing my future plans. U see, I used to like kids so much, I plan to adpot one when I was in my teens. Maybe because of Angelina Jolie's influence on adopting Maddox and Zara. That time Brad is still with Jennifer, so not a thought on having a good-looking husband. Hahaha.
I really wanted to ask some proud parents of 10 kids. Why did they want so many kids? One screaming kid can gives u headache, 3 for migraine, 5 can lead to heart attack. And now 10? How do you cope with their education? Their needs? It happens here in Malaysia. A lot actually. Oh my my...I will grow old alone if I keep on having these kinda thinking. It's bad...bad...bad...Not my time yet. I m still in my early 20s. Very early actually. Not even 21. Just a thought...
March 25, 2006
school dayz meme
How many schools did I go to?
2. Primary and Secondary
Was I the studious nerd, or the last minute hero?
Obviously last minute hero
Was I the class ‘taiko’ or the teacher’s pet?
Both. Depends on the teacher teaching the subject. If the subject is a boring one, I will stay like a mouse. I m always the teacher's pet because of my unique name.
What was the biggest rule I broke in school?
Uncountable. I scolded a teacher. I copy in exams. I m always late for school during my Form 6 days. I sleep in class. I didn't do my homework. etc etc
Three subjects I enjoyed.
English - I like to talk
Malay - And of course I can talk in this class aswell
Economics - the teacher care for me so much I wouldn't wanna hurt her feelings. I push myself to like the subject.
Three teachers that inspired me.
Hmm...my form 6 Economics teacher. My Chemistry teacher in form 4 and then my primary school teacher.
Come on and tell me what's ur school dayz like...
2. Primary and Secondary
Was I the studious nerd, or the last minute hero?
Obviously last minute hero
Was I the class ‘taiko’ or the teacher’s pet?
Both. Depends on the teacher teaching the subject. If the subject is a boring one, I will stay like a mouse. I m always the teacher's pet because of my unique name.
What was the biggest rule I broke in school?
Uncountable. I scolded a teacher. I copy in exams. I m always late for school during my Form 6 days. I sleep in class. I didn't do my homework. etc etc
Three subjects I enjoyed.
English - I like to talk
Malay - And of course I can talk in this class aswell
Economics - the teacher care for me so much I wouldn't wanna hurt her feelings. I push myself to like the subject.
Three teachers that inspired me.
Hmm...my form 6 Economics teacher. My Chemistry teacher in form 4 and then my primary school teacher.
Come on and tell me what's ur school dayz like...
I'm in LOVE
yaay...I think I m in LOVE, is that great? I like that feeling... I m in love with everyone. Not specific though...hmm...I think I m OVER-STRESSED. Anyway, I hope everyone had a great day no matter what. Spread the happiness around yeah!!!
March 24, 2006
How to finish ur research paper in 3 days
Let me tell u how I survived...
We're supposed to write a research paper on a topic chosen by ourselves. Those hardworking people will take months to gather materials and do surveys, interviews and etc. But lazy people like me...baru wanna look for my materials on monday and finished printing it at 6.05am on Friday morning before class and before the dateline. Just imagine how long I stayed up 3 nights in a row. Because I have got not enough time, I fake everything. I fake the survey, I fake the results, I fake everything. I felt bad. But I m running out of time...so dats the best thing to do. No matter what, just don't take other people's work and make it as yours. Acknowledge them. This is very bad. U can fake ur survey and its results but never ever take people's work as treat it as yours. I guess I still have than humanly thinking of mine despite what I did.
That's very unhealthy. I crammed my brain, fry my eyeballs, drank gallons of coffee just to finish that paper. I still have got 5 other subjects' homework to catch up. A very stressfull week I should say. And next week 3 exams papers to sit, 2 presentation of power-point to go. University students are crazy. Procrastinators like me die faster. Aww...sleepy...
We're supposed to write a research paper on a topic chosen by ourselves. Those hardworking people will take months to gather materials and do surveys, interviews and etc. But lazy people like me...baru wanna look for my materials on monday and finished printing it at 6.05am on Friday morning before class and before the dateline. Just imagine how long I stayed up 3 nights in a row. Because I have got not enough time, I fake everything. I fake the survey, I fake the results, I fake everything. I felt bad. But I m running out of time...so dats the best thing to do. No matter what, just don't take other people's work and make it as yours. Acknowledge them. This is very bad. U can fake ur survey and its results but never ever take people's work as treat it as yours. I guess I still have than humanly thinking of mine despite what I did.
That's very unhealthy. I crammed my brain, fry my eyeballs, drank gallons of coffee just to finish that paper. I still have got 5 other subjects' homework to catch up. A very stressfull week I should say. And next week 3 exams papers to sit, 2 presentation of power-point to go. University students are crazy. Procrastinators like me die faster. Aww...sleepy...
March 18, 2006
I m getting old, really old
Yeah, I m getting old and useless. That's what I think. My results deteriorate, my life is a mess, my love life is messier, I'm getting fat and my skin is dry, my friends having their own beautiful life, i have no passion in doing anything, i got no money coz i didn't barely touch my work, my room's a mess again, my brain is not functioning like how it used to. I hate my life today. I m having a crisis. Duh...
March 17, 2006
::Random Stuff::
| Your Five Variable Love Profile |
 Your propensity for monogamy is low.You see love as a gift that you should give to many.It's hard for you to imagine being with one person at at time...Let alone one person for the rest of your life! Experience Level: Your experience level is medium.You probably have had a couple significant loves.And you may have even had your heart broken.But you haven't really dated a wide variety of people. Dominance: Your dominance is medium.You tend to be the one with more power.You aren't a total control freak in relationships..But of course you don't mind getting you way! Cynicism: Your cynicism is low.You are an eternal optimist when it comes to love and romance.No matter how many times you've been hurt - you're never bitter.You believe in one true love, your perfect soulmate.And if you haven't found true love yet, you know you will soon. Independence: Your independence is medium.In relationships, you need both "me time" and "we time."You usually find it easy to be part of a couple.But occasionally you start to feel a little smothered. |
The Five Variable Love Test
10 Steps to Happiness
Remember, you deserve to be happy. We all do. It's good for you, so don't be embarrassed about making it a priority. You can pick up clues from what you like to think about, read and do with your free time. It's like being your own life detective - no one is more expert on what gives you pleasure. Remember life is not a competition. Authentic happiness comes from setting yourself higher goals or standards, not from comparing yourself with others. A happy life is one created by you - a unique creation that cannot be copied from someone else's recipe. Scientists are beginning to identify the roots of positive emotions. The following tips are based on the latest cutting-edge research into the new "science of happiness".
1. Have one hour of totally uninterrupted conversation with your partner every week. In the best relationships, we constantly make a bid for each other's attention: it could be a kiss, a squeeze, a text message. If you are single, call a friend you haven't spoken to in months. Friendship - fun, joy, mimicry, telling jokes - is an adult version of children's play, enabling us to develop valuable physical, social and mental skills. Give yourself permission to be warmer - people love it and no one will think you weird or intense.
2. Identify the hobby or activity that completely absorbs you, where you feel most yourself ("This is the real me") and time seems to stand still. It could be working, making music, playing sport. Psychologists call this a "flow activity", and people record the highest level of gratification afterwards. Being able to forget who we are temporarily is very enjoyable.
3. Be less of a perfectionist. People divide into two categories: "maximisers" and "satisfiers". The maximiser insists on looking at all the alternatives when out shopping before deciding what to buy. The satisfier, on the other hand, says: "That's good enough, that'll do me." The maximiser is doomed to misery in the modern world, because there is so much choice. Going out for a simple bite to eat turns into a trawl for haute cuisine, full of regret for all the choices not made.
4. Don't be a party wallflower. Self-absorption undermines happiness because it stops you from being brilliant at developing close relationships. Think of the most confident person you know and ask yourself how they behave, what they say, then practise doing these things yourself. This is called modelling, and psychologists say successful people do it without realising. Maintain eye contact, touch people (it releases the hormone oxytocin) and use changes in vocal pitch to make yourself sound more interesting. Talk to the other person about topics you think they might be interested in. If feedback is negative, or the conversation turns out to be boring, don't give up. Try a different topic or a different guest.
5. Have a good laugh at least once a day. It increases the blood-flow to the heart, jogs the muscles and provides an internal massage for all the organs. Having 100-200 belly laughs a day would be the equivalent of a high-impact workout and burning off 500 calories. On a bad day, give yourself a break. Switch off serious news and listen to a comedy station or CD of stand-up comedy.
6. Take half an hour of exercise three times a week and your general feeling of happiness will improve by 10-20 per cent. It doesn't need to be anything too masochistic. Gardening, amateur dramatics, even vacuuming counts: anything that gets you moving. Watching soaps on TV is a sign of mild depression. People who garden or go to the theatre are happier than those slumped in an armchair.
7. Smile. People think you look more sincere, sociable - and attractive. And, yes, faking it can work as smiling actually releases feel-good chemicals (endorphins).
8. Be your own best friend. Literally. You would defend a friend to the hilt if others bitched about them, so do the same for yourself. You can fight off your own pessimistic inner voice (usually distorted thinking based on strict parents or teachers) by concentrating on what went right during the day - it could be a pleasant conversation or a great haircut. And if something embarrassing happens, regard it as temporary. If you think about bad things in terms of "always" and "never", you have a permanent pessimistic style. Optimists blame bad events on temporary downturns ("sometimes", "lately"). They don't assume that everything is ruined. Of course, "reframing" (learning to identify and dispute automatic pessimistic thoughts) takes practice. Research shows that it takes 21 days to create a new habit pathway in the brain.
9. Give yourself a treat, whether you think you deserve it or not, and really savour it. We all need animal pleasures - a hot bath, glass of wine, a massage. Or have sex. Touching and orgasm release endorphins, whether it's going solo or with a partner.
10. Do a good turn for someone. It may sound worthy, but scientists have proved that altruism gives longer-lasting pleasure than a bar of chocolate or buying a new outfit. It triggers a cascade of positive effects, making us feel generous and capable. Anyone witnessing the good deed also benefits - they experience an emotion that psychologists call "elevation".
Liz Hoggard is the author of 'How to Be Happy: life-changing insights from the TV series Making Slough Happy'
...just someting to make me ponder why I m still not that happy. I m lack of someting in my life...
1. Have one hour of totally uninterrupted conversation with your partner every week. In the best relationships, we constantly make a bid for each other's attention: it could be a kiss, a squeeze, a text message. If you are single, call a friend you haven't spoken to in months. Friendship - fun, joy, mimicry, telling jokes - is an adult version of children's play, enabling us to develop valuable physical, social and mental skills. Give yourself permission to be warmer - people love it and no one will think you weird or intense.
2. Identify the hobby or activity that completely absorbs you, where you feel most yourself ("This is the real me") and time seems to stand still. It could be working, making music, playing sport. Psychologists call this a "flow activity", and people record the highest level of gratification afterwards. Being able to forget who we are temporarily is very enjoyable.
3. Be less of a perfectionist. People divide into two categories: "maximisers" and "satisfiers". The maximiser insists on looking at all the alternatives when out shopping before deciding what to buy. The satisfier, on the other hand, says: "That's good enough, that'll do me." The maximiser is doomed to misery in the modern world, because there is so much choice. Going out for a simple bite to eat turns into a trawl for haute cuisine, full of regret for all the choices not made.
4. Don't be a party wallflower. Self-absorption undermines happiness because it stops you from being brilliant at developing close relationships. Think of the most confident person you know and ask yourself how they behave, what they say, then practise doing these things yourself. This is called modelling, and psychologists say successful people do it without realising. Maintain eye contact, touch people (it releases the hormone oxytocin) and use changes in vocal pitch to make yourself sound more interesting. Talk to the other person about topics you think they might be interested in. If feedback is negative, or the conversation turns out to be boring, don't give up. Try a different topic or a different guest.
5. Have a good laugh at least once a day. It increases the blood-flow to the heart, jogs the muscles and provides an internal massage for all the organs. Having 100-200 belly laughs a day would be the equivalent of a high-impact workout and burning off 500 calories. On a bad day, give yourself a break. Switch off serious news and listen to a comedy station or CD of stand-up comedy.
6. Take half an hour of exercise three times a week and your general feeling of happiness will improve by 10-20 per cent. It doesn't need to be anything too masochistic. Gardening, amateur dramatics, even vacuuming counts: anything that gets you moving. Watching soaps on TV is a sign of mild depression. People who garden or go to the theatre are happier than those slumped in an armchair.
7. Smile. People think you look more sincere, sociable - and attractive. And, yes, faking it can work as smiling actually releases feel-good chemicals (endorphins).
8. Be your own best friend. Literally. You would defend a friend to the hilt if others bitched about them, so do the same for yourself. You can fight off your own pessimistic inner voice (usually distorted thinking based on strict parents or teachers) by concentrating on what went right during the day - it could be a pleasant conversation or a great haircut. And if something embarrassing happens, regard it as temporary. If you think about bad things in terms of "always" and "never", you have a permanent pessimistic style. Optimists blame bad events on temporary downturns ("sometimes", "lately"). They don't assume that everything is ruined. Of course, "reframing" (learning to identify and dispute automatic pessimistic thoughts) takes practice. Research shows that it takes 21 days to create a new habit pathway in the brain.
9. Give yourself a treat, whether you think you deserve it or not, and really savour it. We all need animal pleasures - a hot bath, glass of wine, a massage. Or have sex. Touching and orgasm release endorphins, whether it's going solo or with a partner.
10. Do a good turn for someone. It may sound worthy, but scientists have proved that altruism gives longer-lasting pleasure than a bar of chocolate or buying a new outfit. It triggers a cascade of positive effects, making us feel generous and capable. Anyone witnessing the good deed also benefits - they experience an emotion that psychologists call "elevation".
Liz Hoggard is the author of 'How to Be Happy: life-changing insights from the TV series Making Slough Happy'
...just someting to make me ponder why I m still not that happy. I m lack of someting in my life...
March 15, 2006
Doctors are stupid???
It's a sleepy day...I drag myself to class, yawned like 10,000 times today and still yawning...Tired because I stayed up late to do some revision, u know like those ordinary students who will only do their work the very last minute just because there's an internal exam. But it didn't help at all. :(
So there's this 12 o'clock class which we called as the "Hilang-perut class" [yeah...lost stomach class because you're too scared to go inside and endure the mental pain and u will have stomach ache everytime u're in the class becoz it's scary and all the butterflies died in ur stomach...reincarnated and die again]. And then my lecturer was telling that we're very lazy and we should work harder....bla bla bla.
Out of the sudden, she said something that really meaningful (to me at least)!:
"You're language students, you must be clever enough to play with the words. U need brain. You're not doctors....you dont need to memorise everything, language isn't about memorising. U can be a doctor if you're stupid becoz u just have to memorise everyting but not here".
Wah!!!! Did u hear that? Well I don't mean anyting, I m not against doctors but I do feel happy inside me to hear that. All these while people kinda look down on students like us very often. U know, it means all those language related stuff are really brainy people. Lawyers, linguist, translator, interpretors, copywriters, deejays...and etc... u got my honour!!!
Language is not about memorising. It's about practising and applying it every single day without fail. Sometimes I just wonder if I could find someone who could provide me Jimmy Choos every single day so I don't have to go through all this. How I wish!! Sigh...I sounded so materialistic.
It's tough. I rather go back to Form 6 and do Maths everyday. I really wanted to go back time and do 10 times Form 6 Maths than doing this. Awww....now I'm in my half mid life crisis...
Wah...this is my best friend!
I dont mind having a few of these...I really dont...
So there's this 12 o'clock class which we called as the "Hilang-perut class" [yeah...lost stomach class because you're too scared to go inside and endure the mental pain and u will have stomach ache everytime u're in the class becoz it's scary and all the butterflies died in ur stomach...reincarnated and die again]. And then my lecturer was telling that we're very lazy and we should work harder....bla bla bla.
Out of the sudden, she said something that really meaningful (to me at least)!:
"You're language students, you must be clever enough to play with the words. U need brain. You're not doctors....you dont need to memorise everything, language isn't about memorising. U can be a doctor if you're stupid becoz u just have to memorise everyting but not here".
Wah!!!! Did u hear that? Well I don't mean anyting, I m not against doctors but I do feel happy inside me to hear that. All these while people kinda look down on students like us very often. U know, it means all those language related stuff are really brainy people. Lawyers, linguist, translator, interpretors, copywriters, deejays...and etc... u got my honour!!!
Language is not about memorising. It's about practising and applying it every single day without fail. Sometimes I just wonder if I could find someone who could provide me Jimmy Choos every single day so I don't have to go through all this. How I wish!! Sigh...I sounded so materialistic.
It's tough. I rather go back to Form 6 and do Maths everyday. I really wanted to go back time and do 10 times Form 6 Maths than doing this. Awww....now I'm in my half mid life crisis...
Wah...this is my best friend!
I dont mind having a few of these...I really dont...
Looking at bling bling things like these kinda motivates me to go on with life. It gives u energy, don't u think so?
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