Happy Chinese New Year Everybody...

GONG HEI FATT CHOY!!!
Happy Chinese New Year Everybody...may all those bad luck go away and in with good luck. To all my frens out there stay happy and pretty always, to everyone who's celebrating CNY and also tumpang celebrating CNY...celebrate with full of passion yah...no passion no meaning...and oh yah most importantly get many many fat fat angpaus...and all the good things in the world...Happy Chinese New Year once again!!!

Why me?

Busy busy busy and also with a series of unfortunate events...dats sad...no mood to write anything yet. Will blog later when I m ok. Just a lil frustrated with my life...

Da B*tching Corner - Let's talk about life, shall we?

Let's B*TCH it OUT

Yeah...I m a lil bit better now...better than the last few days. I m trying to forget everyting about relationship for this moment and start to really concentrate on my studies (yeah I did mention "studies" altho to many of you, I've been known that I will oni do my homework the last minute). Uni life is getting busier with loadsa ass and presentations...Everyone's rushing to get their new stuff for the CNY celebration, I m not in the mood at all...Not as exiciting like when I was still a kid though. I still havent got any new shoes, new stuff for my bedroom, etc.

I woke up early today...before my alarm. I felt so tired with life...yeah I know...I'm just 20 and how long would I whine about life till I m really old enough? Well, well...as you grow older ur frens getting lesser and u will get to meet more people, but some of them dissapoints u and only come to you when they need help.

Owh...what a day for me. Tiring...emotionally. How I wish if I could:

1) Dip into a pool of chocolate...just like the river in Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, minus the waterfall, a small pool would be just nice

2) Get a free shopping spree

3) Go to somewhere new, snap some pics, enjoy the food

4) Lose 5kg today and another 5kg tomorrow just in time for Chinese New Year

5) Meet up with my old frens, I really miss u guys a lot

6) Borrow a magic wand from anyone in 'Harry Potter'

7) Get 10,000 wishes for a week

Well, dats not gonna happen...it's good to let my imagination run wild for a while... :P

Lifeless Soul...not again...

Hmm...

It been days since I felt like a lifeless soul who can still blog. Might not be a good sign. This emo thing really got me bad. I've never thought the feelings could be so big, so deep and hurts a lot too.

Okay, from this moment, I wanted to forget about everything we've ever shared together. The time we spent, the endless talk, the beautiful feeling we've shared. It's time to get back to our own lives respectively and no more emotional cling. I don't know how u felt but it's been a hard time for me. This is even worse than a break-up. I should forget all about u and treat it as if u never exist until the right time we can come out as normal friends. Those soppy songs they aired on the radio makes me wanna cry out loud but too bad, I can't even cry.

Thanks to all my friends who go thru this with me, I appreciate it a lot. It will take some time until I get back to my ownself.

Lifeless Soul...

I m beginning to hate 2006 seriously. I felt so lifeless at this moment. Souless...like a dead fish. The girl inside me who used to be cheerful and happy now gone...gone...

A bad day for me. And u know what happened the whole day?

In the morning: One of my colleague did something very political behind my back. And she said it's for my own good.

In the afternoon: The guy I "dated" (yes, the one who left me alone) really dissapoint me by saying things he shouldn't say (thru a few sms and MSN) and yes I know no one is borned perfect...including me, u miss ur ex-gf too much, just go back to her and have a new life. U r the one who started it. U r the one who said that u will go through everyting with me as my best buddy long time ago. U r the one u who say u wanted to start a new life but u cannot let go. I really hate u but I dont want it to ruin our beautiful friendship. I m so dissapointed with you right now. U pierce thru my heart with just a few words.

In the evening: I met an accident today. One of my car's left tyre sunk into a drain. A minor accident. Dang! But I m thankful, no one is injured. I scared my grandma for sure. Sorry grandma, I dont mean it.

At night: No mood to eat, no mood to look at the food. Now starving but still no mood to eat. Gonna get gastric pain soon.

Friendship means a lot to me. Any human relation matters to me. I don't wanna make it worse, I don't wanna make it a mess. I really love you guys a lot. As a matter of fact, I tried my best to help everytime help is needed. But why deep down inside me I felt so lonely? So lifeless? Am I lack of anything?

Damn emo...I couldn't even think of anything right now...

I M BACK

I M BACK FINALLY...

Well well... after a few ups and downs since my Thailand trip last year...I think I've grown to a more matured young lady. After a few heartbreaks...yes yes...had a really bad time with my boyfriend. And till now the problem is still like that... I guess all I have to do is to just let go and start a new life.

I have a "crush" with a guy recently and I went for a movie with him. He's nice, presentable, charming but he's not a gentleman. That pisses me off. He didn't send me to my car in the middle of the night with no one around the parking area. Dat's scary, it's midnight, I cant seem to find any security guard. He didn't seem to care about my safety...I got panic at first when I couldn't find my car and couldn't get out from the parking area (due to several reason) and he sent an sms telling me that he already reached home. Man, I felt like a fool, I guess that's the worst guy I've ever met in my life. It's so obvious he's trying to avoid me....afterall it's a blind "date".

Not to say all, but i think I m really losing hope with the male species (most of them). It's a sad thing...it's just the beginning of 2006 and so many bad things happened. How am I going to get through 2006? Duh...

I've been in a very bad emo mood since that day. I've got great expectations for this guy but it's sad enough we don't have fate to be friends. Only an affair. Why would I wan to sacrifice myself just for an affair. That's very bad.

I really hope u do reply my message, afterall, we're still friends rite? Why do u have to do this to me? ....sad sad....